Just sitting here reflecting... Some people take the easy route and when JESUS calls they come, thats cool (but thats not my story)! See you were not there this last go round when I was leaving a party and have 4 or 5 AKs headed in my direction, you were not there when I tried to escape and drove my jeep in reverse in to a ditch nor were you there to help me get it out the ditch, you were not there when when I drove my jeep back in to the apts where the party was and I set in tears and prayed to God and told HIM I know I screw up a lot but please get me out this time I will rededicate, I will become drug free (mind you Im on two pills and weed), you were not there when I set in a park keep with my lights, music STILL on sitting there watch the men who were looking for me run pass on the front and back of my jeep as if I was no where to be found, you were not there when I had to drive all the way home wit no gas in my jeep because I was TOO scared to stop, you may have been there when I went to the alter that morning too ashamed to even sit I went straight to the alter as my pastor removed my shades to pray with me... I KNOW who was there from start to finish and thats just one of the MANY reasons I serve ❤️ HIM... This road has not been perfect nor easy but I continue to fight. I just felt like pouring out to you today idk.... However I do thank my brothers Darius Demps and Willie Stupidflyjit Harden for escorting me out that apt that night a few years ago i am always here if you need me... and i thank my Pastor Jermaine Marshall and church family Mt.Olive C.M.E. for NEVER judging or looking down but continuing to love up on me and help me and encourage me to get on right track....my family blood related continue help me stand even when times hit and i dont wanna they keep me right...i know this along status but you know what let me live alittle and speak from the heart and clear my mind....my mother Pamela Demps i love her dearly, she been through alot with me see you were not there to see your son passed out drunk and high on the floor in middle school, you were not there for the first gun threats and people breKing in to her house looking for me, you didnt have to send your son away to live with his Father because his life was going down the tube, which by the way my Father Robert Merritt was the best thing that could have happen for me at the time and still if i need to call i can reach him or my two sisters who were like my two mommas lol kept me with a meal or kept me encouraged in their own special way thank you Robbin Merritt Anglin and Linda Ingram... and my big bro who has been to war with me when we had to protect ourself physically and now spiritually NewBorn Holy Ghosthouse i salute you for being a brother keeper even from a young age i watched you stand up for whats right and you doing it for Christ now.... okay i am done i jonestly dont even know what led me to this status i dont even know whats all written...it dont even matter i love Jesus...im not ashamed of Jesus...thats how i will wrap ot up #Preeeach
Posted on: Tue, 30 Sep 2014 15:56:11 +0000
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