Kissed her forehead goodbye at around 11pm 20th of October 2013 i told her Id see her tomorrow first thing in the morning with Mateo.. She softly says love you drive home safely guys.. In a couple of hours it will be my my mothers 1st year death-sary ... It has been the hardest year of my life .. & a lot of you close to me know that . For those who have lost a loved one understand the depth of my pain..I felt and still feel today Its been a sad, lonely & heartbreaking year not only for myself but my family & of course my father who shared 25 years with my beautiful mother. .. Shamefully admitting this year Ive lost & even pushed people who I love because of all the confusion the mixed emotions the terrible unexplainable feeling of emptiness & loneliness If it wasnt for my family, friends who actually stayed & son I dont think I wouldve been able to cope.. It all gets so overwhelming I have my good days then I have The most unbearable horrible days.. I know in order for myself & our family to heal, wed have to experience the grief process .. & God will give us the strength to be a survivor . But it all still feels so surreal sometimes ... At 4am on the 21st of October 2013 I held my mums hand & spoke to her as she teared up I told her as she was gasping for breath I told her it was ok to go, not to be afraid & I promised I would take care of dad & mateo We then prayed .. God had mercy on us, looked down & called her name.. Shortly after she heard my aunties message through the phone she smiled peacefully closed her eyes to rest .. For those that have lost someone recently, this year, month, week.. Death is raw & there is no way around this one, its unmerciful & painful, remember to celebrate their life and honor their memory by being a good person & simply live...live a full, productive, happy life and make them proud. And .. For those who have their family members,parents with us .. Tomorrow is not promised to anyone so that spare extra minute or two or day off spend it with your fam/loved one , Youll surely regret the day that you didnt take that extra time, a hug or even a kiss you were too busy to grant someone.. So hold your loved one close today tell them you love them very much take the time to say sorry or please forgive me or thank you or ask if theyre okay? & if tomorrow never comes youll have no regrets
Posted on: Mon, 20 Oct 2014 13:36:15 +0000
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