Larissa left a comment on the post “Why God lets good people die early” in our Portuguese blog. __I loved my father.But when I was 6 years old, I, my father, and my older half-sister, from my mom’s side, decided to travel to Bahia and visit some relatives who lived there. When our stay ended, he went to put some gas in the car and fainted. He was taken to the hospital where they were able to bring him back. My brothers, who had moved out there, went to where he was and then he died without me being able to do anything. I should have said that he was the best Dad in the world and that there would never be another like him. He died, and since then I don’t believe in God. I am 12 years old (I’ll be 13 in April of this year) and I threw myself into Science. I consider myself a Science girl. Religion to me has little or no meaning. The feeling I remember when I try to talk to God is rancor. I’m not the least afraid of going to Hell because I’ve already lived it after the death of my father. I’m not afraid of the Devil because, in my point of view, he’s despicable.I have been diagnosed with nervous Anorexia, depression and OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.) I haven’t the least bit of interest in going to church anymore. I don’t feel much happiness. I consider myself a capsule void of feelings. I’m the most quiet of my group of friends and the coldest. I like to be sarcastic and ironic. The pain has gotten a hold of me and it doesn’t want to let go. My friends and family try to cheer me up, but they don’t understand that I don’t want to be saved.____ Larissa, I lost my father when I was 12. Not because he died, but he died to me at the time, when I found out that he had been cheating on my mother with a lover. The one who wanted to die was me. I also asked God why. That pain stayed with me for a very long time. But the pain turned into strength inside of me and even today, more than 28 years later, it still strengthens me.In a strange way, it was the best thing that happened in my life. Everything I conquered and became started back then. Today I don’t question God anymore but I thank Him.As the saying goes: “What doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger.”Look at how strong you’ve become throughout these past years. You found out that religion makes no sense – great discovery, after all it doesn’t. You dedicated yourself to Science and that’s why you are ahead of the majority of girls and boys your age. Your Portuguese is years ahead of many professionals. You’re not afraid of the devil, he really is despicable. You are a very strong young woman. And you’re not even 13 years old! Imagine how this strength can help you in the years to come? Imagine if you allow God to show you the good purpose He has for you with all this that happened? ____ This really impacted me today.... :-) k goodnight
Posted on: Thu, 06 Mar 2014 07:29:04 +0000
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