Lets just say its been a rough morning. This day never seems to - TopicsExpress

Lets just say its been a rough morning. This day never seems to get any easier for me. I remember for a split second the day of our wedding I literally fell apart and nobody really knew what was wrong, and the day I found out I was pregnant I was crushed for a moment bc I wanted to run and go tell him. I carry him in my heart everyday. This kind of wound is not something time heals. It hits u in mid day the same as it does when u wake from a dream. A song, a smell, the sun beating on ur face at just the right moment can take u right back, and that is what I hold onto. I have my selfish days where I am angered and I have to ask for forgiveness from the big man upstairs bc I still want him with me but I know in my heart I will see him again. I feel for girls who dont have brothers like mine, and I laugh when I hear a young girl complain about her brother being over protective bc I can only imagine the hell Shane would have put TJ thro but I know Cody gave him enough for the both of them. Hold all family tight and remember to forgive as we are never promised tomorrow. Have a blessed day my friends and family.