Life just sucks. Everyone have their family to back onto. Me? No. Just myself. Since young, Ive been living in hell with a dad who teaches me with lots of abuse and scolding. People are usually happy when their parents are home. Me? No. Fear. Ive been abused by soaking myself in a pail of ice water for hours when im 4 years old to 7, getting whacked by cane, which gradually become hanger, then bamboo stick (used to hanging clothes). At the age of 8, my hand have been burned by candles which leaves scars until today. When im in my late primary school, early secondary school times, im practically treated like maids. Never do housework = no pocket money. Well, how much is my pocket money? $20/week. I still live with it. Never once my parents gave me extra money for anything, never once bought the things for me which i like alot. My phone, phone bills, computer, laptop, everything which i owns now is from my own money. Gradually I become who I am, left home, quite school at secondary 4 despite being an Express Student. Everyday in my mind is thinking of how to survive. When im 15, I founded DeathToB Network, which I met a few coders and hackers who taught me a lot, as well as my best friend Google and Youtube. Agent which then led to Agent 2 (today). Many people probably thinks im rich. Well, im not. You probably havent experience the daily stress of wanting to learn something new, yet you cant because youre shouldering $1000 plus minus amount of bills per month. Im just 18 now, living in Singapore. Do I look like I have a future? On 1 side, im being stressed by school whenever project datelines are near, another side im stressed by incomes. What Im doing now wont last me for life. Probably till my early 20s, I guess. Until today I havent seek any problem treatment for my diagnosed Acute Stress Disorder, in 2009/2010. The past 2 weeks have been hell for me. Im practically having no energy everyday I wake up, despite the amount of hours I slept. Im still wondering how i can continue this life.
Posted on: Fri, 04 Oct 2013 13:52:36 +0000
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