Life the Universe & Everything Awesome About the Catlins the true nature of love and Dolphins. Ok quick post three days in Catlins - swam with dolphins - in Bluff setting up a trip to go and see some sharks - if I get the chance hope to get in the cage and clean their teeth (lol). The podcast for the show we did with Jeff Wefferson on dolphins whales and shamanic connection should be up soon (Ben gets a bit esoteric towards the end).Bit of bugger my beautiful linux camera jammed up 100 meters from the Cathedral Caves but still hope to have some awesome footage up soon. On the bright size after swimming with the Dolphins (and what a sunrise this morning) I finally figured out how to let go of an old grief and still find a way to be true to a good friend. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Some people put up walls not because they dont care but because caring is to scary. It is easy judge such people for such cowardly behavior but not until you have walked in their shoes do you have that right. Others do it but then add insult to injury by not only putting up walls but using your commitment to them to betray your gift of friendship and make yo pay for their own cowardliness with malicious behavior. One should never feel hatred for such people for their is no need they hate themselves if any thing they my pity. Yet as I watched the dolphins come in and swim out as part of their cycles (having viewed the 1000 million years Cathedral) I realized one day every thing has it cycle. This includes the universe itself and one day it will contract only to repeat this cycle and expand all over again. What we do today, how we choose to live and treat others, has happened an infinite times before and it will happen again an infinite time to be. So it is pointless to carry such negative emotions in your hearts such as fear, anger, hate, for to do so is to doom one self to a hell (eternal torment) of ones own making. At less that my take on life the universe and everything. I sat back and realized in past two years I have had my heart dented deeply but in the first case no harm was ever done to me with deliberate intention. I have not one single regret about this person ever coming into my life even if it was for a short time. A short time destine to repeated itself for infinity. So why feel sad. i wrote her a letter to day just saying thanks - you were awesome - and I wrote it realzing it was time to let go to to give up the guilt, the sense of self blame, the horrible feeling if only i tried harder I could help. I was beating myself up because I wasnt allowed to fight her demons but this was not my battle to fight. In writing her a thank you letter I got to leave her sword a tool which should she choose to use, hopefully repay her for the great joy she brought to my life. Some times if you truly give a shit about people you have to stop telling them what to do even if you think you know best and just honor them by having faith in their own judgment and skill. And if you dont your not respecting them and if your not respecting them your not loving them. So why should they buy into your own hell how ever well intentioned that road may be lined. In the second case the individual in question turned out to be some one who spoke pretty words but carried a poison cup a pitch fork and pointy tail under her pretty form. She set out to punish and burn my world for the crime of challenging her deep seated hatred of herself - she liked hell whatever she might claim - it was safe it was what she knew. I am sad about this but she never showed me the true friendship that my other partner did before her own fears overwhelmed her so their simply is no friendship to miss. But had I not thought of how the two differ I would have let my self being fooled into thinking she was worth grieving for. So through the lesson my buddy had given me on what true friendship is once more she protected me from hurt even if she did not know it. Thanks pal your right why waste a minute of anger or regret on something not worth it when you know that minute going to be replaying for infinity. Nah I will pass on that - farewell demon girl may you journey well but it not a journey I need buy into. It feels good to find away to finally say good bye and not feel you have betrayed a promise. To have your mojo back to breath and love it. And the dolphins swam in and the dolphins swam out - life if good and that is how it is meant to be. postmanproductions.org.
Posted on: Mon, 26 Jan 2015 05:04:39 +0000
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