MOST PEOPLE DONT UNDERSTAND MY CHANGE…SOME OF MY ADDICTIONS IN MY LIFE WERE LEADING ME TO THE PATH OF MY DISTRACTION…AND REALIZING THAT IM BECOMING THE BEAST I USED TO BE…YEARS AGO MY LIFE WITHOUT CHRIST…WELL HERES A BREIF EXPLANATION SO YOU WILL KNOW WHO I USED TO BE... I WROTE THIS YEARS AGO…AND I DONT EVER WANT TO BE LIKE THIS AGAIN!!! MY MOTIVES, AND MY DREAMS...TOOK ME FOR A DETOUR INTO THIS BROKEN AND PERVERSE WORLD I CALLED HOME... BEING BLIND AND LOST...MY PASSION BECAME INSPIRED THRU POWER, MONEY AND WOMEN… I LIVED LIFE AS I HAD NO TOMORROW, SO EVERYDAY HAD TO COUNT, THE LIFESTYLE IVE CHOSEN WAS TO BE A MANS MAN AND TRULY A LADIES MAN, WANTING MEN TO FEAR AND RESPECT ME, SO THEY CAN LIVE FOR ME, OR MEN WANTING TO BE LIKE ME… I LIVED AS I HAD A PURPOSE , WITH SO MANY AMBITIONS TO FIND WAYS TO BE KING IN MY KINGDOM… USING MANIPULATION, LIES, AND PAINTING PICTURES AND CREATING IDEAS. AND LOOKING TO FEED THIS IMAGINATIONS I CREATED… CROSSING LINES, GOING TO THE DARK-SIDE AND WALKING ON THE WILD-SIDE AS IF I BEEN THERE BEFORE, WITH NO FEAR, WITH NO THOUGHT OF BEING CAUGHT, NOTHING WOULD STOP ME FROM GETTING WHERE I WANTED TO BE… IVE WORKED WITH MEN THAT HAD NO WORTH, IVE LOOKED DOWN AT MEN THAT HAD NO LIFE OR HAD NO GAME OR EVEN HAD NO FUTURE… I USED TO STUDY AND CREATE IMAGES TO INFLUENCE PEOPLE TO BE A PART OF MY WORLD… DAILY I WOULD FEED THIS DEMON THAT WOULDNT LEAVE ME ALONE, BEING BOUND TO THIS BONDAGE I CALLED MY LIFE, THAT I CREATED… BEING APART OF A BUSINESS THAT HAD NO LIMITS OF TAKING ME TO THE TOP OF THIS DIEING AND PERVERSE WORLD THAT I CALLED HOME… I SOLD WOMENS HOPES AND DREAMS FOR PLEASURES, FINDING THEMSELVES WITH NO WORTH, WITH NO DIGNITY OF SELF WORTH THEY WOULD FADE AWAY IN THE DARK SHADOWS OF THIS DIEING AND PERVERSE WORLD I CALLED HOME… BEING A PARTNER OF A BUSINESS THAT DISTRIBUTES DEATH IN BAGGIES OR THRU VAINS, GLASS PIPES THAT WOULD ONLY STIMULATE THEIR MINDS OF ANY HURT AND HIDDEN PAIN, ESCAPING FROM REALITY AND HOPING THAT JUST ONE MORE DAY WOULD HURRY AND COME TO AND END FROM THIS DIEING AND PERVERSE WORLD I CALLED HOME… I LIVED WITH MEN, THAT LIVED LIFE TO THE FULLEST, THEY HAD NO FEAR, WITH NO STANDARDS AND NO THOUGHT OF BEING CAUGHT…THE HOMIES WERE MY FAMILY THAT PROVEN THEMSELVES TO WATCH MY BACK… THE MUSIC INDUSTRY WAS CREATED TO KEEP THE GLORY OF MY WORLD, TO TEASE AND DRAW THE PLEASURE OF SELF-CENTERED LIFESTYLES TOGETHER, AFTER HOURS PARTIES AND THE V.I.P STATUES WOULD INTICE MEN AND WOMEN ALIKE…THE ENTICEMENT OF THEIR FLESH IS WHAT MADE ME MONEY, BROKEN HOMES, BROKEN DREAMS, AND BROKEN PEOPLE IS WHAT KEPT ME IN BUSINESS, IN THIS DIEING AND PERVERSE WORLD I CALLED HOME, THE BIBLE SAYS: FOR THE WAGES OF SIN IS DEATH!!! BUT THE GIFT OF GOD IS ETERNAL LIFE… FOR SOME REASON I FIND MYSELF IN THIS LOST PATTERNED THAT I LIVED BEFORE... SO I MADE MY DECISION NO TO DIE IN MY SIN…BUT TO LIVE FOR CHRIST!!! AMEN???
Posted on: Wed, 12 Mar 2014 18:33:01 +0000
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