Moooorning lovelies!!! So this was me on my 29th birthday, a month after I got married. Boy how life can change over night! For those of you who are aware I suffer from PCOS and a few other medical problems. After having been on the pill for a few years to regulate my menstrual cycle I decided to take the contraceptive injection Dec 13/Jan 14 as with my busy lifestyle of working full-time, running my own business, being a wife and a Momma Bear to my sister Sam, I was always forgetting to take the pill so thought Id change to something I wouldnt have to remember to take daily - and what a bad decision it was!!!! Last year on our amazing Clean 9 and weight management programmes I lost 4 stone 5 lbs, which after taking just 2 of the contraceptive injection I put back on - they were devastating side effects, weight gain, swelling, severe joint pains. It took me 10-15 minutes just to climb a flight of stairs. Early on in the year I attended our usual company Success Day with Forever, and to be physically standing there that day I had drank 3 litres of our Aloe Vera Gel (3 bottles) over a 2 day period prior to the event and I was fine, climbing stairs, walking pain free etc. Now I know thats a large amount to drink but it gave me an idea to how toxic my body actually was. After sometime my body started totally rejecting the drinking gel including alot of foods aswell. I love the gel and had been drinking it for an entire year but because of the drug in my body it just wasnt having it, if i took the gel or she certain organic foods I would violently throw up, get ill, have hot and cold sweats and be in bed for a week at least. It was awful! My life was my bedroom and the bathroom... I had difficulty walking and being down. Having my own cleaning lady really help me obviously, however having had to grow up from a young age Ive always been independent and mentally I wasnt coping with the loss of control. I also had Paramedics out on occasions in the early hours of the morning as an emergency as I woke up being being unable to breath. I had constant spasms throughout my body, water infections and I have been on and off work due to the lack of mobility. I am just so thankful I had a secondary income stream from Forever as my husband has not been here. I started taking some Forever supplements - Absorbant C, Fields of Greens, Forever Daily, Arctic sea, A-Beta-Care mid year and within 2 days I was pain free! I was so emotional I cried for a week!! It still makes ne emotional thinking about it now. I lost alot of confidence in myself, my life, Ive publicly never said this but I suffer from Depression and have been in and out of Depression since having a been through traumatic childhood... so it decided to kick in this year. I dont go on about it because every human being in earth is facing challenges and going through some sort of battle! depression is a seriously horrible thing to have, it can suck you in to a very dark and lonely place. Despite all that I do believe I have a strong soul and everything in life happens for a reason. Every struggle teaches you something! This year has taught me that health is bloody important - most of my life I have been so busy taking care of everyone else in the world except me. I have made some bad decisions but Im human. Its an inner game and I will win it if its the last thing I do. I will now be getting expert coaching to change my mindset and the stupid belief system I have... Im fat, and always going to stay this way Im not good enough for anyone and not worthy of the things I work hard for Im going to end up sad, depressed and alone I dont deserved to be loved or cared for by anyone You get the idea... Sitting here crying... Everyone Ive ever known from school to now has thought that my lifes perfect, hate to disappoint but its not, Im faced with difficulties, I fight demons everyday... I know now that Im healing which takes time but you keep going... Youve got to right? You owe it to yourself to be and create greatness... I will heal and I will soar - just watch me!! Next month I will be starting my new lifestyle... A 69 day plan to change my life... Lets do this!! I swear I could write a book! RIP Robin Williams - so busy saving the world that you forget about yourself! PS - I have not written this to get sympathy or anything just to say that whatever it is youre going through, you WILL get through it... It may take time and patience but theres ALWAYS a light at the end of the tunnel... Just have belief... And youre the only person that can change youre life - Absolutely no one else can!!!! Love you all peeps!!! Xxxx
Posted on: Tue, 21 Oct 2014 08:11:37 +0000
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