Morning guys! Another one of those mornings where I woke up in the middle of the night looking at a blank ceiling in the dark. I struggled with the thought whether to take a sleeping pill or not, just to fall back to sleep. I found myself thinking to myself: this is going to be the first Thanksgiving I dont spend with my kids. Its hard not to reminisce on Gods goodness.. God has been so good to us. Super good. I must admit: again, I found again praising the Lord for His goodness, love and mercy. Along with, thanking Him for His mighty PROTECTION on this family. I was thinking back to last year. When we were all around the dinning table giving thanks during Thanksgiving. I was recalling everyones comments. Some were pretty intense, some funny and some deep. Nonetheless, everyone had something to say including the children. I also remembered how as a family we all wanted more closeness. More quality time with each other. Family dinners. What ever happened to those? sigh I know those dinners meant the world to some of you. (frowning) I even found myself thinking back to how we almost lost Jezebel. this coming year will be two year anniversary of new life for Betserroo. Thank you, Lord! That incident really brought us even close and made all of us have to reflect within ourselves and reevaluate our lives and see how short life is. I can still remember how she laid in a coma. How we were in the dark, not knowing whether she come out of the coma and be normal- mentally. Whew. Close call. What was even sadder was how some of us didnt know our own flesh and blood. Like what her favorite color was. What she liked eating. Her favorite foods. Things we should have known especially for being Grandparents; Uncles and Aunts. That near death experience, almost losing someone you love...what a life changing experience. Ever since for me it has been life changing everyday of my life. Since that time, I dont take life for-granted. Not that I ever did. I just got a new perspective on life since that day, that;s all. . What a challenging battle that was for all of us. But with the Lords love and compassion we got through it and overcame that one dark cloud that hovered on our lives for some time. More so, for Mags. But we made it. Thank God, (My prayer for you Mags is that the Lord will continue to give you strength, to you and Jezebel cause I know you both still are dealing with the after effects) if you guys could only feel what Im feeling right now...Im shaking. Gods been so good. So so good to us. Like I said, last years Thanksgiving praises are still resonating in my head. They were all so real and genuine. I remembered some of you guys holding back tears while talking and sharing, I could sense TRUE amazing LOVE for one other. Weve overcome a lot of obstacles as a whole, ya know? And, the sad part is (yet exciting) is, that we arent even half ways there yet. . 2014 is about to end. We will be entering another year. A new year. With new memories, some good, some bad, some ups some downs and more challenges-need I remind you? . Words I want to leave with you all. CHERISH EACH OTHER! Really CHERISH ONE ANOTHER. LOVE ONE ANOTHER SINCERELY. and GENUINELY. LOVE FROM THE Heart and not just with words. Treat each other with GENUINE affection and tenderness. Hold your brothers and sisters close to your heart. Not only them but their families, meaning your nephews and your nieces. You all need each other. TRUST ME. If your brother or a sister is LACKING in an area you see, rather than TALK BEHIND THEIR BACKS about THEM, HELP THEM OUT. Many times I HELPED OUT did things for you, not cause I was enabling you, but I saw the LACK in certain areas. I always laughed inside myself when people came to me telling me I was enabling you. :):) Oh you dont say? LOL I always said, Be slow to speak, quick to listen and listening was one of my greatest strengths in life. :):) The bottom line is: God see all things. He rewards us for our deeds. Dont turn an eye on a situation. HELP OUT if need be. We need each other. Enough of this Let him learn the hard way bull crap... God doesnt talk that way, and we as Children of God, dont think and act like the world.:):) so there!! I stuck around more than most parents should have..I admit; .but hey....LOVE COMPELLED ME TO DO IT. ( oh before I forget, you have the best grandparents in the world never forget that) :):) If, I left you guys I would have to say I left because of my sickness. All of deal with illness differently and for me I felt stressed out about a lot of things, that had nothing to do with you guys-but with me. Im not going to say it was a mid life crisis-cause that would be an excuse. I had my own reevaluating to do. If you were told you only had five years to live how would you react? You find yourself thinking..Wow, what can I do to let those I love know I really love them? What can I change about myself so that when Im dead and gone, they wont talk about me in a negative way, but have wonderful memories of me, rather than do what I have seen in other family members funerals-TALK CRAP ABOUT THEIR LOVED ONE. those were some things in life I saw, that I just thought were down right wrong sad and sickening. (And by the way, these were God fearing men and women of God) I need you guys to seriously UNDERSTAND that this isnt a COMPETITION on whose doing it better then the other person. . We need each other. I cannot stress enough to you all that you need to learn to LOVE and CHERISH your brothers and sister partner. Whether you like them or not. This is not a scolding, these are mere words to BUILD US UP as a FAMILY and to teach you to LOVE APPRECIATE and RESPECT what your brother sister like and love. Its all about RESPECT Your brother and your sister will always be your brother and sister regardless of who ever it is they spend their life with. Some of you might have been close before their partner entered their lives and sometimes its hard adjusting to CHANGE, but he will always be YOUR BROTHER, and she will always be YOUR SISTER. I have always noticed that in our family we have always suffered with He;s mine, not yours petty crap. We never allow anyone to come inside our family. At least not until they pass the test. :):) Another thing: Don;t talk about your brothers or sister partner behind their backs. MORE IMPORTANTLY: Dont talk about your family in a negative way . What I always hated about our family, seriously hated was how everyone talked secretly to someone about such and such, and acted pretended like they were cool with you. Thats what I call SICK MIND GAMES. Just sick in general. Life is too short for those kind of games. And, if your not playing them, and you hear someone saying something NEGATIVE about your brother sister or family member in general I think its time to be the bigger MATURE person and SHUT THEM UP! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! Again, lifes too short to be caught up in a cycle of NEGATIVITY. Time to GROW UP! Sometimes we do ..follow what everyone is doing for fear of being alone. We need to take a stand on what is down RIGHT MORAL. Healthy families dont do this sort of stuff. Were HUMAN BEINGS!! Some of us act though like ravaging wolves tearing each other apart laughing and giggling while having no conscience whatsoever about what we are saying about those close to us. We reap what we sow. Period. I say all this to HELP and GUIDE you to becoming better people/citizens/uncles/aunts and children of God. Lastly, forgive each other always. True forgiveness doesnt remember a single thought of what was done to you by that person. Its just NOT REMEMBERED. Period. If you need HELP FORGIVING someone ask the Lord. I can promise you that He will help you and give you the strength to do so. Lastly, I need you to remember that LOVE is CONSTANT. Its ever Present, ever CHANGING. Its constantly evolving... it never dies. No matter what. My prayer for all of you this Thanksgiving year two thousand fourteen is: that the Lord would RESTORE everything that was robbed from us . And, that He would show all of you what GENUINE CONSTANT LOVE TRULY IS.... I love you guys... always, PS: This blog was in a no way meant to hurt offend any of you. I am the one doing some deep soul searching in my own life and what I learn I share... Kisses to all you! youtu.be/9ZdPT47wWyA
Posted on: Sun, 26 Oct 2014 15:25:17 +0000
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