My children, Its hard to grasp time slipping away from your parents, that we dont stay frozen in a preferred ageless time. We are not guarded from what sometimes feels like a relentless cascade ailments... untimely, and seemingly unavoidable once we hit the big 50. It happens differently for everyone, but for some its so very abrupt, without warning...total shock. Once healthy, then NOT... Trying not to be morbid here, but its just that life is pretty real in my line of work...and Im pretty straight up about real life issues that we all will face on one level or another, at one point or another. We parents once had all the health, confidence, quick wit, and seemingly endless praise from our wide eyed young children. They thought us quite invincible...and we truly felt we were!! Yeah, its pretty hard to be put in a dim light of aging, increased health concerns, scared of being less important to your children, definately more tired, made fun of for forgetting, not being up to educational or the new world standards, and so on, and so on..... We parents do try So Very hard, mean well, and yes, we know we forget things, and did I mention we repeat things too, over, and over, and over!! Sorry about that!! The awareness of going it alone in the end ....without the old confidences, mental sharpness, and agility of our youth might be the hardest thing we ever have to face. So considering we may be rejected by our children for all these things we cant seem to help, makes growing old undoutably more fearful a process, and so seemly unfair. We only hope we are not totally alone through our more difficult times. Dont get me wrong here, as I do hope we are always in good company, if not our own childrens. Ive heard some horror stories ... and No thank you, but Id rather be alone in that case! Please dear children, remember our hearts never forget what we were to you once, and we long to be that person again, and know we may never ever be again. I pray I have your understanding of the slight changes that are taking place as time goes on. I might be as vulnerable as young child at times, seems just so backwards right! I believe it is natures way of seeing that we parents may soon get what we once had given...a test of sorts perhaps for you our children. Wishing for exceptance of whats ahead, that we will fight together to get every ounce of health, happiness, love, Joy and compassion out of our year here together as family. I Support that nothing is forever, your time, my time, our time...it all may be shorter than we realize, everyday should be spent as if its our last, letting the people you love know now how you feel. That there are NO do overs, and my love for you always grows stronger, never weaker. Although we had challenges, years of let downs, going it alone, my being a single mom, the teen drama...hanging on tight by threads! Sleepless nights, and constant concerns for your safety....that it was all worth it, as long we are still here for each other, always and to the end. You will understand these same life events more personally one day. I hope it is with your own children, raising them, going through It, just as I have so your chidren will then be there for you...as you will have been there for me, and I for You!! My Lifes work will then be complete! I Love You Forever, and Forever Your Mother I Will Be!!
Posted on: Wed, 21 Jan 2015 03:16:39 +0000
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