My father was my hero... 0n February 3 of this year my only son and first born Darrian Thomas Starkey be came a man and turned 21. On the same day I signed the agreement papers to declare my new home that I had been saving 7 years for and on that exact same day heaven received the most kind and gentle man you would ever meet my father. For those who havent loss a loved one at the magnitude such as a parent let me just prepare you for it. Shock consumes you and your just Numb all the time its like its not really real and your in denial all the time. Im trying to make this short but I really want to include everyone who helped me so it will be a book lol.. After my fathers funeral life changed drastically nothing was the same for me NOTHING! Every thought I had was on him. Im very hurt and confused my son becomes a man Hey thats a huge accomplishment for 7 years ive been praying and saving FOR a house and now Im weeks from getting one but Im loss judgement is cloudy and just plain hurt depression is my best friend my siblings pains becomes my pains Im worried about them too March 28th rows around my daughters 15 birthday and my closing date on the house same day cant make that up small note here my grandmother passed away on my birthday June 15th many years ago. It was pouring down raining after working 10 hour shifts my friends and co workers helped me move my place Shawn Hayden Joe tutt and Willie curry Mike Turner was going to help but I was undecided if I wanted to move that day so he went home. Thanks guys for all of your support and encouraging words. Now Im in this house its cold strange big very unfamiliar all my stuff is soaked in the garage and im fill with guilt yep about my dad I shouldnt be moving I should be mourning. . Me and my father talked every Sunday as I drove to church I told him I wanted to get a house and have thanksgiving at my house for once we talked about my siblings fishing his grandkids and of course Indianapolis Colts. Of course I would talk to my prayer warrior mom about this too but not in great detail as I would with my dad my mom is a news anchor for Henderson Kentucky lol she watches Fox News 25 News CNN ABC CSN MSNBC if the channels shows news Japan Egypt or Mars my moms is watching lol my mom is the reason why Im here today shes my strength my wisdom my light So now Im in this house and it should be the happiest time of my life but its not its weird but for some reason its like this was all planned for years my dad would preach to me the importance of family YEARS! and I wouldnt listen you see my father was like 4 dads he was the oldest in his family so when I met my aunts and uncles and cousins they would always say Wilbert said do this or Wilbert said do that Much like a fathers orders then a brother they loved and respected him but it was strange because he was MY dad and there brother My father took care of his father for years as you grow older the tables turn and the child becomes the parent it brings me great pleasure to help my mother I could never repay all the things shes done for me My father was also dad to many in my community growing up to my surprise I still get messages on here from people I grew up with telling me things my father did for them I remember often times I would see my dad give kids money to go get candy I use to get mad because I would think thats my grape and cherry nowalater and sixlets and my favorite taffy sucker with all the different color circles in it money lol Then kids would always go to my dads shop to talk to him which I too thought was strange why they talking to my dad for? And then of course my immediate family great provider great sense of humor and a iron fist if he needed to be. What you need to understand that nothing was more important to my dad then Family and he wanted to teach his kids that As I begin to think back on him and what he was all about the idea of me surprising my family on thanksgiving day arose for 7 months I managed to keep it a secret from 6 women yep 6!!!! Lol my mom aunt woody and my 4 sisters I often almost got caught At the grocery stores and lowes coming up with excuses it was a big task So I works 10 hours at my job some overtime ever month then I would get up at 3 in the morning work on the inside of the house go to work then come home work on the outside of the house until it got dark then back working on the inside 7 months I did THIS. Through all of this we loss some more family members The Allens and Hughes Garnetts Satterfields Hargis Williams Turners Todds Lucas and please forgive me for the ones I forgot to mention so along with normal stress and mourning my fathers death now my heart goes out to these families as well because where all family right.
Posted on: Mon, 01 Dec 2014 10:38:21 +0000
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