My minds a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast Blurs all the colors til I cant see past The last mistake, the choice I made Staring in the mirror with myself to blame Sometimes Im afraid of the thoughts inside Nowhere to hide inside my mind Im scared that youll compare and Ill look a lifetime past repair I second guess myself to death, I re-solicit every step What if my words are meaningless? What if my hearts misleading this? I try to capture every moment as it comes to me Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company When the hope of morning starts to fade in me I dont dare let darkness have its way with me And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight I will not be giving in tonight When Im old and grey, or thirty, or whatever happens first, Ill need you to reassure me I didnt waste a verse Or worse, what if my lifes work is reduced to just myself Like never let you get a word in, while I dissect my mental health Or lack thereof, whatever, theres too many things to track I really cant remember if Im insane or insomniac Now days, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselves Trade up made up epidemics, pass around prescription pills But my disorder cant be cured by a bottle, blade, or dose Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close But I dont wanna let you see that, I dont want my friends to know Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go When the hope of morning starts to fade in me I dont dare let darkness have its way with me And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight I will not be giving in tonight Try as I might to keep it together Why is recovery taking forever Fool the whole world, just until I get better Im terrified Ill be faking forever On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head I dont have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I did All the pain I cant explain away wont fade All the the secrets silenced by the shame Dont make me say it [x7] When the hope of morning starts to fade in me I dont dare let darkness have its way with me And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight I will not be giving in tonight
Posted on: Wed, 15 Oct 2014 02:08:41 +0000
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