My problem is that I cant commit long term to romantic relationships. This commitment phobia automatically colors me as a bad person because the right thing to do in this society is to find that one special person and commit to them for the rest of your life. (ideally) Ive never had my heart broken. In one relationship a guy cheated on me and I found myself not caring. I do form romantic bonds and attachments towards other people, but after a period of time the feelings of romance and passion evaporate. I recently came out of a relationship with a guy I had a really strong bond with. We connected on a deep personal level and had a great friendship in addition to a great relationship. Yet when he started talking about marriage and more serious commitment I began to experience a high amount of anxiety and depression. It was as if I had been placed into a box with no horizon or freedom in sight. I ended up breaking with the guy, and now he wont even talk/be friends with me. I feel that Im a good person. Im upfront about my commitment issues. Yet, because of this cultures norms, Im an immoral person because I cant commit. I do end up getting into relationships hoping for a casual movie and dinner once a week type thing. But it always turns into a situation where the guy has stronger feelings for me than I do for him, and I end up breaking his heart. Im tired of breaking peoples hearts and feel like perhaps I should just forever be alone. Is there anyone else out there like me?
Posted on: Mon, 17 Nov 2014 16:08:53 +0000