Now after meeting Chez and reading his recent words I truly dont connect to the small minds of the Krump world or the regular world because after my original best friend got shot and murdered right next to me, my lil bro got stabbed losing a lung because of me, after failing in my marriage and after my first son died so did I.... I didnt finish high school because of fighting and gang violence which I learned to transfer into dance (Krump).... Ive been searching for MY PLACE in this world ever since my drug addict mother and my immigrant father had me and their relationship left me in the Forster care system which wasnt limited to a family of men hating women due to their experiences with molestation and Child abuse.... Uncles and brothers who cant stay out of jail, aunts and sisters who sold their bodies for survival..... I come from people who hate themselves because love was never taught and left behind as if useless..... My fathers father who recently passed was motherless and fatherless and married my grandmother who already had three kids... Mu father married my mom who already had three kids... Family is found, not something that confines you due to blood connection.... Most of my biggest supporters and inspirations arent relatives.... Ive found and made some of the strongest bonds through moving in the direction of WHAT IS HAPPINESS... After seeing my son after he was born I didnt see him until over a year later but he awoke from his stroller looking me in the eyes with excitement reminding me of those there first days in the hospital I sat with him in my arms just trying to connect while I could with the fear of not knowing if ill ever see him again because his brother lived for five mouths only to die in his sleep due to S.I.D.S..... But my son Aiden looks at me with love and respect and I find purpose, I find strength, I find appreciation for his mother, her pain, her struggles, her life and what it means to Aiden and myself.... My best friend Nightmare adopted by a Jewish woman who is my god mother so you could only imagine his childhood and how it affected who he is today.... Ive already said to much but the point is that we all go through it in many different ways but WHAT MATTERS TO YOU? WHAT WILL YOU DO? WHO WILL YOU TAKE WITH YOU? WHEN WILL YOU GO? HOW WILL YOU GET THERE? And as for Chez aka Tight Eyez thank you for fighting your demons, forgiving your enemies, getting back up everytime, and never quiting on Krump because Krump is my life style and I dont see that as small at all due to how much work it took to bring it this far. In my opinion Krump is the art form of those who truly face the world in faith and in its face beyond what most can comprehend because we share the same goal with similar paths that arent perfect, but whose is? MY GOAL IS TO JOIN YOU ON YOUR JOURNEY WHICH IS THE SAME AS MINE AND TO FIND WHERE KRUMP AND HAPPINESS COEXIST WITHOUT POVERTY, but as for the negative attributes of the world I guess thats everyones battle to face. EVERYONE IS A ROLE MODEL SO MAKE SURE YOUR ROLE IS ONE THAT WILL NOT ONLY BENEFIT YOU BUT THOSE YOU LOVE... -HD
Posted on: Fri, 31 Oct 2014 16:06:40 +0000
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