*Oftentimes, you dont realize a persons worth, until that person is gone. There are many things I learned because of love and about love. Im a guy. When I was sixteen I had my first love. Shes two years younger than me. Mag Schoolmates kami during elementary and highschool in our town. I really fell hard over her, shes smart,mabait, simple yet pretty. Ive never felt that feeling for any girl before, until I knew her. Hindi ko sya masyadong napansin dati kasi may puppy love ako noon, hehe. I courted her for 4 months and we were like M.U for another 4 months, then she finally became my Girlfriend. Finally! Pero the problem that time is di pa sya pinapayagan ng parents nya na mag-boyfriend kasi nga, only child sya. But knowing teenagers, pasaway talaga, we continued our relationship na patago, sa school lang talaga kami libre na magkasama. Sabay kaming naglalakad papuntang school at hinihintay ko talaga sya sa gate after class kasi hinahatid ko sya pero hindi sa bahay nila kasi nga di sya pinapayagan mag BF! But things went okay that way. Highschool graduation came and we made a promise to each other na we will not change, and well always communicate and that SHELL ALSO STUDY COLLEGE IN THE CITY. I went to the City to study kasi magsi-seaman nga daw ako (not in Manila, but somewhere in our province lang) ,while my girlfriend was in third year high school, doing great in her studies as always. Our relationship became stronger. But one day, I found myself very confused, tempted and wanted to break up with her. I broke up with her without saying any reason. I left her hanging. I had flings while Im in the city. I was able to hurt her. Time flew so fast. Its her Graduation time that came. I was hoping shed also study in the city just like what we promised, so I made a way to communicate with her. I was hurt when she said na shes going to study in Cebu. I courted her again and she gave me a second chance. Im very thankful and blessed shes my girl. Again, naging kami ulit. She took Med.Tech.. AND FINALLY PINAYAGAN NA SYA NG PARENTS NYANG MAKIPAG BOYFRIEND !!! I introduced her to my family, and she introduced me to her family. It was an ideal relationshio, very open, full of love. Though it was a long distance relationship but we managed it. I missed her everyday. I graduated BS Marine Transportation year 2005, I was offered with a job from an international maritime company 5 months after I graduated. Our long distance relationship became LONGER DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP. I thought it was easy since sanay na kami na LDR, but no, nothing was easy. I cant contact her easily when I miss her coz its not always na merong signal sa barko. I was paranoid, paranoid that shell date other men. Its not that I dont trust her but, damn, shes just too pretty not to be asked for a date. After some months being in abroad, I was able to adjust but I didnt notice I had changed already. I dont call her that often anymore and I always think about FLINGS! So again, I decided to break up with her. I came home after I finished my contract, me and my ex personally had a talk, I told her I was not sure of myself . I still loved her but there are times I just cant think of us being together. I wanted to explore more, I wanted to find myself because I dont want to hurt her over and over again. I love her, I know I love her. I easily get jealous just thinking about her being with another guy. But I thought that time cool off was best for us, so I can think about what was the best for us. She was very supportive in every things I wanted even though I know shes hurt, she doesnt show it. She wants me to be happy. And it made me love her more. But I was a shit of a dumb, I wasnt able to think clearly that time, so I dumped her without giving valid reasons. I just told her that she deserves better than me and that I will always love her, that we will not make it through etc. I was so ashamed that time and had no face to show to her parents. Her parents were always so kind to me and supportive of us. I told her that we will not communicate anymore. She wanted to cry but shes giving me a strong image. I know shes hurt cause I saw it in her eyes. We went separate ways. I went out of the country again and worked in the ship. We never had communication. My mom told me she already graduated Med.Tech. After some months, mom told me she already passed the board exam. Shes an RMT. After some months mom told me shes studying Medicine. I felt happy for her, she really pursued her dreams. I never heard of her again. After some years, I went home and I wanted to visit and see her, but mom told me that she already left the Philippines some months ago and went to Europe because she was accepted in a Student Exchange program. Time was not in favor with us, after my 4 months of stay in the Philippines, I had to go back to work. I was inside the plane, and turned my phone for a while to let my mom know Im in the airport, but I got a message from mom saying Shes home, just now. Sayang di kayo nagpang-abot, I wanted to get out of that plane but a flight attendant came to me and told me to turn off my phone kasi lilipad na daw. The plane was speeding the runway already. I was inside my cabin and still thinking of her. I got an urge to call her, but she changed her number already, the number I dialled was not in use anymore. April , Year 2012. She graduated Medicine. I wanted to see her in one of her happiest days. I called my mom and asked her if she could buy a gift and give it to her. But before I could finish those words mom said Shes getting married. I think shes engaged.hindi ako nakapagsalita for a moment and had hard time absorbing the news. I wanted to jump off that ship and just die. So I knew , that was KARMA. Karma has already worked. Karma na talaga to. I added her on facebook and thank God in-accept niya ko. Hahahah. So I stalked her and knew she has a boyfriend already. Karma. Ang karma di nag-iingay.. October 8, Year 2012. I came home after 9 months of hard work. I went straight to their house that day. Her mom let me inside. She was studying in her room I guess preparing for the Physicians board exam. I called her but she wasnt able to hear me because she had earphones and listening to music. I came closer to her, and I had butterflies . Damn , I thought only girls could feel butterflies in the stomach. I dont know why I was crying that moment, I don’t know, maybe because I already seen her (not totally, I was just looking at her hair, her back , her room at that moment) I immediately hugged her from behind without second thoughts. Love. I knew it was really love. That day, I talked to her and asked for forgiveness, shes so kind. She accepted my apology. Best part about that day? I LEARNED THAT SHE NO LONGER HAD A BOYFRIEND. AND THAT SHE WASNT ENGAGED AFTER ALL. SHE REJECTED THE PROPOSAL. We dated and I was her exclusive driver during her Post Graduate Internship (PGI) days. Ako yong taga hatid sa kanya during duty nya, ako yong taga sundo after duty for 1 month. I loved it that way. Parang were making up for the lost time. November, 2012. But I had to go back to work na naman. Another 9 months. Well already had a plan of marrying her when I get back. But how to offer a marriage proposal? Well, humingi talaga ako ng tulong sa mama ko. hehehhe August, Year 2013. a good news came. She passed the Physicians Board exam. I am so proud of her. Everyone is so proud of her. I couldnt wait to see her. Two weeks of waiting was way too long. Then after two weeks, Im home again. September,2013. hinintay nya talaga ako sa airport. Lucky, coz day off niya that day, so no hospital works. She was bringing her car, but I wanted to drive coz I have to take her somewhere or else, masisira yong plans ko. So I argued with her, she says I should rest coz pagod daw sa biyahe. I said 9 months akong di nakapag-drive so I wanna drive now. I won. I drove for almost 1 hour from Tagbilaran city all the way to our town, were we both grew up. I took her to our dating place (yong place namin nung highschool kasi nga patago yong relationship namin). Our parents were also there, and some of our close friends. I proposed to her, i was so nervous that time. I almost dropped the ring kasi nanginginig talaga yong kamay ko. Buti nalang she said YES. Today.September17, 2013. I am in a coffee shop right now. In front of me is a young, beautiful, kind and loving Doctor. She doesnt know Im writing this. Shes clueless. Shes busy reading a magazine. She caught me looking at her, she smiled and my heart melted. I held her hand and looked at our engagement ring. Shes 25 years old. Im 27. Shes now a Doctor. Im a Chiefmate. She wants to specialize in Pediatrics. Im taking review courses for being a ships Captain. Were getting married by January next year. I Thank God for the chances, for letting me win back my destiny. The girl I hurt the most, the girl I love the most. Even though I dont understand her when she gets mood swings, I will try to understand. Cause she was able to understand me during the time I couldnt understand myself. Lucky for me I got her back. LESSON LEARNED: Boys, Dont waste chances. It may be your last chance.
Posted on: Mon, 15 Dec 2014 11:02:20 +0000
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