Ok finally home and in bed!! Dont know where to begin but Ive been very open about what I have been through this last year since I got dx with breast cancer and Im gonna continue to be open because it helps me to talk about it and not feel that Im alone in this because honestly this is scary shit and with my experience if I can help one woman or many women thats all that matters to me. I have no shame I am not embarrassed I dont feel less of a woman its just something that happened and it happened to me. Today I had my 6 month appointment with my oncologist and my radiation dr. A few weeks ago I felt a lump on my left side of my breast area maybe as big as a bean. So I told my oncologist he felt it and told me to tell my radiation dr and see what she thought so at 2 I told my other dr and she said I need to call your breast surgeon and see what he wants to do I said ok and she also said that the kind of lump it was she had never experienced cause it moved around it had no roots but that she still wanted his opinion so she comes back in and tells me he wants to see me now and that possibly Ill have surgery today. I felt myself go into shock but right away I had to compose myself cause I had my 8 year old daughter in the lobby. So I get in the car Im texting with Alexis telling her whats going on trying not to freak her out but before I knew it she was at the clinic with me. So he also said he had never experienced that type of lump leave it to me everything that could be different or go wrong happens to me. But its ok Im not gonna lose faith and I continue to believe that I will be ok and that GOD is on my side. So he tried to take out the fluid with a huge needle and very little came out so then he switched me to a different room and said he was gonna do a biopsy with like this drill and he was having a hard time and said he might have me go back and cut me open to take it out and I said no you need to take this out now. And hes like are you sure you are ok your not feeling anything Im like no Im fine continue please no sedation no anesthesia Im strong and I kept talking to GOD make me strong please dont let me feel anything I need this out now. He just kept saying I was doing good. And finally I heard the words I got it all out and Im gonna send it to pathology just to be sure its nothing serious He said he felt that its just fluid that turned into a blood clot but I just want to make sure. Which I agree I come to the waiting room and my daughter is freaking out but trying to compose herself cause her sister is just staring at us and Im like Im ok no worries I laughed smiled and said lets go eat havent ate all day. And she tells me how do you do this mom smile everyday with everything you go through. Its my faith my trust I believe in GOD that hes on my side and that I will be just fine. You just have to be positive have positive thoughts leave what happened behind and continue to move forward. I will have the results in 4 to 5 days. So again I ask for a little prayer that everything comes out good and that I can continue the road of being healed and healthy once again. Thank you and I appreciate you all taking time in saying a prayer for me. Remember I strongly believe in the power of prayer. Good night and may GOD bless you all. 😘💋💋💋❤️✌️and in my eyes my day turned out great spent the day with my daughter Annalina bought lottery tickets won some money and did not expect to see Alexis but I saw her had lunch with her so all was good after all. 😊😊😊😊
Posted on: Thu, 24 Jul 2014 06:01:00 +0000