One of my beloved fur sons is dying. Arjuna came into my life eight years ago, with his brother Isha and a senior Golden Retriever, Malie. I was new to the Hawaiian island and newly married. I read an article about a lady who started a non-kill sanctuary here on the island and wanted to meet her and visit her place. The reason why I ended up on the island at the first place, well, the worldly reason was that my most beloved Golden Jakob died a few months before and my world along with my heart fell apart. Jakob was my teacher, guru, best friend, beloved, son, healer, clown, life savor, safety net and I was not nearly ready to loose him and go on without him. I moved to Hawaii and swam with the dolphins every day to heal my heart, my soul and to ask for guidance. So my brand new husband, who did not want to have any more pets in his life because of all the pain involved at the end and I went to the Rainbow Friends Sanctuary in Hilo and met Mary Rose the founder, one tough amazing lady Saint. Somehow she heard in my phone conversation that I just lost a Golden and savvy as she has to be in the rescue field, took the 8 year old senior Golden who just recently lost his last home due to severe Alzheimer aside; and once I saw this beautiful copper colored older Gentlemen with a greyed big nose and my husband the look in my eyes, well of course we had to take him home. When we sat down to write the check this cat lands on my lap and starts rubbing his beautiful face against me. I did not want to say anything to not overwhelm my new husband, so the kitty was smart enough to climb over on to his lap and smeared himself all over him with his huge bright blue eyes sparkling. So he says, Is this cat for adoption? (me rubbing my hands mentally in joy). Mary Rose says, Yes, but .... he came with a brother and they have never been separated before, we just got them in, they just lost their home ... So I got up to look at his brother. He was eating and when I approached him, he looked up at me. Talk about love at first sight. I have never seen a more beautiful and perfect cat. So we went home with three, a senior Golden and two temple sacred mix cat brothers. The Goldens name was Chance and we renamed him Malie, which means calm and serene like the ocean in Hawaiian. The cats names were Mauna and Kea, which is a sacred mountain here in Hawaii. But I renamed the charmer who worked on us first, Isha, which is the supreme Lord in Sanskrit, and his brother was named Arjuna after he overcame three days of trauma with a bunch of dogs who chased him and after hiding decided to step into his power and come back to us as a sacred warrior prince. Isha was always the easier one, the welcome committee, the healer, the one who would get a couple who was pet sitting, out of the house in the early morning hours before a major earth quake. I call him Dr. Isha because he seems to travel with a tiny suit case with a red cross on it. Now Arjuna is totally different. Shy, skittish, had to be won over. Hides, runs away, not very social. But let me tell you, once I got him to open up to me, to fully trust me, to let me love him, a whole universe opened up for me and for him. Total surrender. Trust. Letting go. He would melt in my hands and never leave. We would both be melted butter for hours. All three of us would go for walks (we had a 15 acre organic Avocado and Coffee farm here in South Kona, Hawaii for several years) and soon they would also trust Malie to join in (and other dogs to follow later). It is utterly magical to take walks with cats. It is the most mindful and peace full meditation, you watch were you are going, you walk very slowly and in full awareness trying to sense what the little tigers sense, being still. We would leave the path ways and venture out in between the coffee trees and lava rocks. Slowly, both tigers would follow me and we would loose ourselves on our little adventures. Later on I moved and took the princes with me, being my core family (I dont have children). They are about 14 and a half now and my sweet divine Arjuna started ailing a few weeks ago. He started loosing weight and for a while I was hoping it would just be a phase. When it got worse I went to several vets to find out that he has lung cancer and that there is nothing that can be done. I experienced several deaths over the years with my beloved pets and every time I think it cannot get any more traumatic, heart breaking, horrible. Arjuna is the first one who vanishes before my eyes. He is now a skeleton with beautiful fur and huge blue eyes. I feel utterly powerless and cannot describe the pain here. But I am also grateful that I can be there with him at his end (which I have not fully accepted yet.) Until a few weeks ago he would still eat very little about every three days or so but that has stopped now. Basically he has not really eaten for over a month now or drank any water. Until a few days ago I would squirt a little maple syrup water into his lil mouth to help him with the blood sugar level. But I have stopped that now too. I asked a vet to come to our house twice to assess the situation and to talk with me, sadly I am not an animal communicator (I so so so wish I could talk to them and more so listen to them), because the last thing I want him to do is suffer. But both times they agreed with me that he is too alert to do anything drastic. So I wait it out with him. Very very difficult to watch your beloved starve to death. He is weak now. We talked about giving him infusions one more time two days ago but it would only prolong his departure and not change anything. Here is what I want to share with you - if we take the time, love, perseverance and energy to get to know the animals who show up in our lives and help them to blossom - the blessings and rewards are boundless. And that does not only apply to cats and dogs and horses. Look at Esther, the Wonderpig, she ended up with a loving family and wins over all our hearts, just by being able and allowed to be herself. Every single cow and rabbit, goat and sheep, chicken and turkey, pig and fish truly deserves our respect and worship. We are only here for such a short time, and we only interact with a small amount of human and non human animals. Let us cherish all of them, be in awe over them, find out who they are and not look away or ingest them like garbage disposals. I love Arjuna more than anything and I wish he would be healthy and strong and with me much much longer. But it is his time to leave, to move on, to find liberation, to go home. His wings are growing as we speak and as much as I would love to hold on to this precious divine being, I also envy him for being free and liberated soon, for becoming the pure love he already is on a less dense level and to shine his amazing light. I hope that he can be my guardian angel or at least send me some strength so I find the energy to continue my sacred path of vegan activism which encompasses freedom and basic rights for all beings. I do not want any more violence, oppression and exploitation in this world, I do not want any more animals and humans to be harmed needlessly and I want us, the human animals to step it up and evolve to a peaceful species in this world. Please send us good thoughts and prayers in these last days or hours we have together and widen these thoughts to every sentient being who is suffering and who wants to be free and liberated, including your choices of food. Thank you friends.
Posted on: Fri, 04 Jul 2014 01:50:16 +0000