Over and over. Same old same old. Rejection is bound to happen this time. If it doesnt happen then great. I am certain rejection is what I deserve. Why do I ask the same thing of this person over and over. I cause this person pain and assume no responsibility. I yell and scream. And throw them away. We part so often and each time we do I push and push. Then pine to have them back. And they always come back. I always hope they will push back but they never have. Sometimes I wish there was a way to know who I was meant to love. This person is the total opposite of me, yet at the same time just like me. We are both very stubborn. So my question is, did I ever really love this person or was it all just a sick game? It was always so easy to ignore you................ Now I know. It was all a sick game to me. Like cat and mouse. Throw you love and affection. Bat you around. Make you do as I please. Then cast you aside like an old ball of yarn. Id beg you to come back to me. You always did. Little did you know I only beckoned when I needed you. Otherwise I cast you aside. I really am a monster.
Posted on: Fri, 14 Mar 2014 13:34:29 +0000