PLEASE READ..I hope by writing this I have helped at least one person gain the strength to keep fighting. Sitting here reading posts and liking many of them. And I see so many names of great friends I have met thru Facebook and other programs on the web. Each day I am so thankful for all of you, not only for being such great friends, but also the awesome supporters for my cause United Fight For Disability. What started from a deep frustration has been channeled into a heartfelt desire to help everyone. Many of you have viewed my initial video, and still to this day I cry. To see myself so ill, drained of life, and so close to perishing, it is still very scary of what the future may hold. I think about how close I was to leaving my children without a mom here on earth, to leave the side of the man I know is my soul mate, and the many friends I consider my extended family. It took every bit of strength I had to function everyday, but many times all the strength that I did have was used just to crawl to the restroom, but after that I had to rely on my family to help me back to the couch or my bed, which I felt I would be until I was called home. I would call my children over one at a time and thank them for what they were doing for me. Inside I was dying and I told each of them countless times I feel like a burden (and again) I am so sorry. The tears fell like rain and sometimes a violent storm of emotion fueled each tear that fell. I seen my children as tiny babies, swaddled in my arms, and I clung to the memories we have created. Surgery was my only hope as masses grew by my intestines, damaged intestine from obstructions, stricture, numerous flares, and my colon had collapsed. As I hugged my children and the man I am to marry, I feared not only for my life, but for theirs. As I thought the pain could not have been any worse, the recovery tried my strength even more. As the days went by, still frail, still weak, I had to reach down into the deepest part of my soul and hold tight to the fact that I had made it this far. God had chosen to show me I had purpose, but it was up to me to make it happen. I feel that with faith not only is anything possible, but the sky is the limit. I recovered, but with chronic illnesses and disease, it is a constant reminder that yes, it may be a lifelong battle, but at the same time the triumphs and successes are even more rewarding. With my cause that was created from these emotions, but in the end was channeled to help others. it is not only to show that individually we are all strong, but when united with others who share the same heartaches, obstacles, and pain, anything can be achieved. I want to help, encourage, empower, support, and strive to improve the quality of life for all, as together we are United Fight For Disability. *SHAUNA*
Posted on: Sun, 01 Sep 2013 15:42:16 +0000
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