!!**!!PLEASE READ THIS!!**!! If youve never experienced bipolar depression yourself, you wont understand the way someone who has it feels. On a daily basis we fight our emotions and try to be happy. Some days its a lot harder than others. Imagine having ten people in a small room all yelling negative things at you. Thats how our minds are 24/7. And unfortunately its a lot harder to hear the one person whispering positive things over the 10 people yelling out negative things. Some days theres a reason for our anger and depression. Other days there just isnt. I know it sounds insane, but its like you just wake up and before you have time to even open your eyes a sudden wave of depression pulls you down and it carrys throughout the day. The question Why? can be really irritating. Especially when we truly dont know... Its hard to live every day never knowing when the sudden anger or sadness is going to consume you. We get stressed really easily. Especially on bad days. We have a lot to deal with and its truly exhausting. When theres no explanation for your emotions, it makes everything difficult. People get mad at me because I get into these moods but they dont understand how hard my heart and mind are battling every emotion at once and trying to find a way to cope. When I get upset, telling me to think positive never helps. My mind blocks out the positive and all I see is negative. But, like I said before, I cant control it. Every single day is a struggle. Living a normal life is close to impossible. The slightest things can spark off the anger or depression and Im left wondering what it was and why. I dont have all the answers and I dont know how to make it better. Medications dont work because I convince myself I dont need them. And I dont want to need them... No one understands how much a simple chemical imbalance can mess up everything. Im not crazy. Im not a freak or anything like that. My brain just works differently. So please, try to say something encouraging to someone every day. Because you never know who needs to hear it...
Posted on: Thu, 27 Nov 2014 23:28:00 +0000
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