Pastor Rusty was saying last night at church that in Ephesians 5 it says to sing songs from your heart to Christ, sing praises over everything. He said What about those moments that are so overwhelming, terrible, or hurtful that you cant praise him in gratitude for it? Can you sing praises for that car wreck or that death? It says sing praises in everything so what do you do in those moments? You praise him simply for who he is. Ive heard that before and I struggled with wrapping my mind around that. I love God when I think of all he has done for me. Ive heard Pastor Rusty and Pastor Leisa say how we should love God for who he is not just for what he has done or will do for us. Just for him. I tried but every time my mind would go over what he had done and that was how I knew I loved him. I had never been in a situation of absolute grief or pain. Then my brother died. Things didnt happen th way I thought they would. I didnt understand and I was rocked. I knew I was suppose to praise so I did. Th day I found out, that night I went to church and I fell on my knees and I worshiped. It was then during those months of grief that I learned what it is to worship God for who he is. I told God in th midst of th grief that I didnt understand and I was mad because things didnt turn out th way I thought they would but all that aside I was crazy about him and I would still follow him anywhere. I loved him for him. His thoughts are not my thoughts and his ways are higher than my ways. I would not lean on my own understanding. I would trust in him. My relationship with God had th biggest test of what it was made of when my brother died. It was me lifting my face up to th Lord and focusing on him that got me through th storm. God proved faithful and true during my grief. He never left me. He healed me. He restored my trust. He lifted me up so high that I could not fall. ☔️⚡️☁️ Lift me up! When Im fallin Lift me up! When Im drownin!
Posted on: Fri, 26 Sep 2014 02:05:38 +0000