People are Good I did proof read this but I didnt wanna edit it to much because A. Im impulsive from time to time, part of being ADHD B. I didnt wanna loose any of the freshness and humor present. I had an amazing day! Made me think of this song. I wrote a super long version but I decided to keep this version brief and public. Its intended for anybody who struggles with depression, addiction and faith or rather the lack of. For like 4 years I had no hope for a future that I wanted to be apart of. This is why I fed my addiction, I knew what I was doing but I just didnt see a better alternative. To this day I still dont know how I got it, but I started to feel hope. I think its one of those chicken and the egg things. With hope I confronted my addiction. Within 2 weeks of addressing it I set the goal to draw for 4 hours a day. Art saved my life. Making art gave me structure, personal fulfillment, direction, and something to look forward to. I would wake up at 5am excited to draw. My body didnt get up at 5am but my mind wanted to. Since keeping this goal and posting my art online it feels like things are finally falling into place. Diligence can not be over stated. Im so grateful Im alive at a time on earth when we have the internet. I get instant exposure. I make art just as much for you as I do for me. Your support and praise is why I do this. After all isnt thats honestly why we do anything? We are social animals. We need each other. I kept looking for God to make an appearance but he never did. I think this is an important part of why Im writing this. You can get your life together without a belief in supernatural things. Im not trying to take away from your beliefs if you have them. I just got frustrated so often in my depression and addiction because it felt like everywhere I turned people wanted me to believe that God was the only way out. I refused to believe this. I think a belief in God would have made it a lot easier but I to this day in good conscious cant say I have any real reason to believe in God. I dont believe in God, I believe in people. To me it cheapens the good people do when they say well God works thru other people. People cant do good without a God? So God takes away their choice and makes them do good? To me that takes away from the good that people give. Okay the God rant is done back to the rest of why Im writing this. Oh and please dont comment with anything if it is some attempt to get me to see the light. Your wasting your time. If God is real he knows everything and he knows I want to believe, so its between him and I, stay out of it. My mind is going a million miles an hour as I write this. I have so many things I could say. At one point I found myself thinking, maybe you should write a book? Nay, I wanna make art, not write a self-help book. Besides I dont need to write a book. Someone can just compile all my Facebook, blog and journal writings when Im dead. Im gonna need to be dead before my middle school journals are ever read by anyone other than me. You ever gone back and read those? I cant. Im so embarrassed that I even thought those things and wrote that much about that girl. I think what set this manic moment off was an old friend contacting me on Facebook about an hour ago to tell me I need to create a list for him of all the markers I want so he can buy them for me. He also instructed me to not be cheap and that was after I told him what I want it would be around $300-$500. People are good. His name is...maybe I shouldnt say. He believes in God and there is that whole part about not standing on the street corner when you do your good works. Maybe hell get more blessings if I keep him anonymous. To sum all this thinking out loud up... Art saved my life People are good Its within YOU to overcome addictions People are good Dont read my journal People are good and Be diligent doing what you love and people will love and support you for it https://youtube/watch?v=AEm2afF8Iyo
Posted on: Fri, 05 Dec 2014 08:12:18 +0000
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