Please keep me anonymous thanks...ok I dont know where the hell to begin. My life is completely shit and overwhelming the only thing Im good at is screwing my life up. I had 9 months clean after detoxing of a high dose of methadone. Only thing I had to tackle was a low dose of benzos. I begged my doctor to let me come off when I was ready just like with methadone I had enough and decided to come off. My dr felt as I came off methadone without their help then I could do the same with benzos 6 weeks after my last dose Id relasped back on to heroin with I havent picked up in 6 yrs. Now Im hooked and go thru withdrawals on a daily basis. I honestly do not know where to turn now I have no NA meetings in my area I tried AA but they looked at me like I was a piece of scum. At the moment Im trying to get funding for intensive 7 week rehab. My close family and friends dont even know Ive relepased apart from my 22yr old son I also have an 11yr old daughter and I love them so much but the guilt of not being able to put food on the table is killing me. I honestly feel like ending this shit right now I cant take anymore. Also I find it so difficult to find my god or hp...so Ive no meetings, no sponsor and no hope would really love to know what advice can be given to a hopeless addict whos very much sick and suffering please oh and theres no shit u can throw at me that I dont think off my self but feel free. All I hear is meeting makers make it but what do I do if I have no meetings and trust me there is none around me...many thanks just need some words and prayers please
Posted on: Tue, 03 Dec 2013 02:30:01 +0000
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