Please post this and please do not feel obliged to comment if you can not find anything helpful to say. I think I just need to speak up even if its anonymous. I have tons of friends here but, the sad part or ironic whichever way you wish to put it, is that none of them will know. Im sad and depressed and lonely and for the first time in my life, suicidal which is scaring me the most. I dont know precisely how I got here. Im the happiest girl alive, a description by my friends. Im sociable. I love what I do. I have the most amazing parents. I have so many friends. Yet, I know for a fact that theyre just people I know and hang out with. No one has ever cared much about me. I have no best friend. Reality says that I have a best friend but shes not. She never ever start conversation or ask about me unless shes bored or needs something. Im known to be the dependable one. When ever anyone needs help, they call and I admit Ill do anything for a friend but shouldnt that also go the other way? I never know who to call when I need to talk or when I need help. I thank God everyday for my parents because theyre apparently are the only ones who really care and whom I can depend on. But I always think that they love me because Im their daughter. But has anyone who is not related to me ever cared? I know I am melodramatic but it doesnt change that its true. Ive learnt to expect nothing out of people to never be disappointed again. I laugh and do my best to make everyone around me feels happy. My Facebook profile is like an inspirational page and everyone thinks Im great. No one knows that most of the times Im crying myself to sleep. If only someone questions my nothings. Im always fine. Its nothing. Im great. So, whats the question?
Posted on: Mon, 18 Nov 2013 00:19:58 +0000
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