R.I.P.-Return If Possible July 1, 2013 ********************** R.I.P.-Return If Possible Written by: @teebabsy *********************** There he is in the midst of his friends, all dressed up in his denim shorts, red tee-shirt and red converse shoes to match!He looks more handsome than I’d ever seen him. Our eyes meet and then we both look away!I’m going to walk past him and I hope secretly, that he talks to me today. Its been 6 months since he broke up with me but it seems like its been forever. I don’t even understand how everything ended in a split second!AllI know is one minute, he’s in love and the next minute, he’s fallen out of love with me. I walk past and I can hear their muffled laughter!I can’t hold back the tears, I run down the school halls to the bathroom and I cry my eyes out. He used to be an important part of my life. The oneI gave it “all” to but I guess to him, I was just another hurdle to cross. The school bell rings and I hurriedly clean my eyes, with a smile plastered on ma face, I step out of the bathroom!No one can understand the hurt I feel inside. How do Imake it go away?? ********************** Tola’s running into the hallway, the bright lights almost blind her and the numerous people distract her for a while. Her heart is racing very fast and She keeps praying. Her mom is being rushed into the hospitalthis morning. She remembers her reaction when the doctor told them she had Cancer and had only a few years to live. Those words tugged at her chest. Sheprayed for the strength to endure but no one prepared her for how hard it would be; the constant hospital visits, the throwing up, the constipation, the frail body and the very weak bones. Its been a year since then and there she was watching as her mom was being taken into the Emergency room. They are told towait outside and She clings on to her daddy’s left arm. The doors shut right in their faces and then she begins to pray. She prays with every ounce of strength in her. In that room lies her mother, her friend and confidant. The tears begin to rush much faster than she can hold them in. Hours later, the doctor walks out and he says the unimaginable “I’m sorry we lost her” she staggers backwards, there’sa numbness within her. She holds on to her chest, it feels like her heart has been ripped out, she tightens her grip to be certain her heart’s still there. She looks to her dad and for the first time since she can remember,he is crying!!!He barges into the room and then she sees her lying still as the sunlight reflects on her skin, she looks more beautiful than ever. She recalls how strong, wonderful and amazing she had been. He holds her handand together they step out of the hospital,ready to face a world without the most crucial person in their lives. How do they begin the journey? *********************** On sunday afternoons after church, we used to play hide and seek in the garden behind my house. We would play differentgames and then head up to the main house for lunch, whatever my mother hadprepared. We were the best of friends, we knew each other’s secrets and deepest of desires. We were so happy when we got admitted into the same university!”Best friends forever”, we chanted, we couldn’t have been more wrong. It seems like centuries have passed since then. Its funny how people who once meant a lot to you, become total strangers. Now we don’t even say the occasional “hello” or “hi” anymore. I get nothing more than a glance, if I’m lucky, two glances and then she looks away. The visits ended a long time ago. she doesn’t even remember my birthday. She doesn’t seem to be affected by the change. Its almost as if I never existed or it seems like I’m dead to her. I can’t even remember what it was we fought about or even if there was any fight of the sort but I know I lost my best friend and it hurts a lot. She’s been there for me for as long as I can remember. Which other person could ease the hurt??? In life, we all come to a point where we have to deal with loss, rejection and pain. Most times we wish we could return thosefeelings if it were possible. We often believe nobody would ever understand what it feels like. We carry a lot of pain, anger and frustration and the hurt is almost unbearable. Its hard to lose someone or be cast away by the one you care about, its difficult being “The Rejected” but what makes us strong Is our will to rise against all odds, our determination to move on and only be grateful for the things we have been blessed with. Its that determination and hope or would I say faith that things would get better that makes all the difference. For those of us hurting or dealing with issues, those of us that don’t want to trust again or just open up anymore, I round up saying Cast away your fears and behind it you will only find courage. XOXO With Sugary Love..
Posted on: Mon, 01 Jul 2013 23:18:55 +0000
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