REFLECTION 12-30-14 Tonight I went to Vesper Worship Event at SHBC Roots Youth, to celebrate New Years and to reflect on all that God has done in 2014. It was a time of praise worship and reflection. As we worshiped, a question came up on the monitor, What was the single event that has effected you and changed you and your relationship with God in 2014? Immediately, I knew what that one moment was. I began to cry as I thought about that specific moment. It happened on Aug 6th, I was at Saddleback Church in Lake Forest, California, at the CR Summit West. It was the first session of the Summit and Pastor John was speaking about the new CR App. I grabbed my phone and was about to download the new app when I noticed that I had a text from my sister. I began to read the text, as I did my eyes began to fill with tears as I read what would turn out to be the most amazing message I had ever read. Here is the exact text: Hey Coty! Dad had a rare day of clarity where he was remembering you and me and our pictures of growing up. I showed Dad the devotional you gave him Jesus Calling. I read him what you wrote inside. I told him about you being the leader for your ministry and all the great things you are doing. How you are living for Christ! Dad said Good. Good. God answered my prayer. I thought you might like hearing that. Have a good day! At that very moment everything that I had desired from my Dad had been realized. You see, my Dad had been diagnosed with dementia and early signs of Alzheimers about 8 years ago. At that point in my life I was still on a different path. I had always wanted my Dads love and approval but I never felt I had it because of the bad choices that I had made in many areas of my life. This lack of love and approval from him had caused me to have serious issues with any authority figures that I came into contact with in my life. And God being the biggest authority figure in my life had caused me issues with trusting Him and allowing Him to take control. Up untiil that time, I didnt want to let go of the wheel to allow God to completely take over and have complete control of my life. But that Friday, at the cross ceremony, at the Summit; I nailed control and trust to the cross. I also put on there for God to use me as He saw fit. I have let God take control of every part of my life and have been blessed for it. It has been hard for me to do this because I know there is something that I have desired for many years but have been unable to make happen on my own. Every attempt has failed and this has been a hard thing to come to grips with. God gave me a gift on that August morning. The gift was that single moment of clarity for my Dad and my Sister being present to witness it. All I can say is this, God took my biggest issue away in that moment. 2014 has been a great year of healing for me, and I cant wait to see what God has instore for 2015. I know God has everything under control. Isaiah 43:19 NIV See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.
Posted on: Wed, 31 Dec 2014 04:17:35 +0000
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