***Reader Needs Advice*** NO BASHING!!! I am 27 weeks pregnant and last week I was informed by my doctors that I have chlamydia. I felt my whole world come crashing down. In two years theres only been one person for me, my husband. He claims he must have had it before we met in 2012, thats hard to believe because I was tested in February 2013 and I was perfectly fine then. A week before this I messaged a girl who I felt was being inapropriate with my husband and I found out he had been planning on meeting up with her behind my back, she doesnt live in the same town as us and she came to visit family in April, they both claim they didnt meet up but.... the things she said were graphic and led me to believe that he had been cheating online with her, this did not suprise me as I know he cheats online and he has done it over and over. I have forgiven him because I always believed that he would NEVER cheat physically. He used to drink a lot and party and I chalked the online up to the fact he still has a little growing up to do and even though he is now sober he misses that lifestyle. Well now everything about our relationship feels like a lie. If he compliments me I feel bitter because all I can think is how many women has he called beautiful today? How many women has he called honey or baby? I dont want to touch him or sleep with him because I feel cheap. I am an amazing woman and the lengths I have gone to make our relationship work despite every hardship.... He really doesnt deserve me. Yet I still love him and the idea of leaving him just hurts in a way I cant describe. I realized long ago that he wont ever leave me simply because he knows he will never be with a woman like me again if he does. He takes everything that is good about me and uses it he takes and he takes and he takes. What happens when he finally takes to much? I feel so confused and broken, after two miscarriages he endangered my health and our childs. Im not stupid and I undesrtand he will continue to treat me this way as long as I stay but I need advice from women who know what its like to love a man who will always hurt you, how do you even begin to let go when everything inside is screaming for you to cling tighter?
Posted on: Mon, 09 Jun 2014 15:15:00 +0000
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