SECRETS - What is the purpose of a secret? Today, I was actually forced, or maybe God knew I was ready to deal with a secret so deep, that it was only brought to the forefront of my mind after learning of the death of someone who attempted real harm to me years ago. I never told anyone what happened between us--I knew I had escaped and after all, to me, thats all that mattered. But then why did I feel such shame; why did I not tell anyone what happened? As I read the obituary of the person who had every intention of hurting me so long ago, I realized even with their numerous personal and career accomplishments, all I could focus on was the secret that was making its way from my past to the present -- the place of no escape. So, much like the person who makes the decision to jump into a swimming pool without knowing the temperature of the water, I just blurted out to my brothers what happened. Their first question was why didnt I tell them back then? To which I responded that I had such a feeling of shame; like I had done something wrong. My brothers were incredibly supportive, and even as I sit here typing, I feel their love for me. After sharing all the details with them, we were then able to dialogue about others of our childhood friends that we suspected had also been hurt and wounded and were most likely never able to tell their story. I feel a deeper connection to my brothers today, and it is as if exposing the dreaded secret enabled me to receive an unexpected gift. My prayer for all of us tonight is to not allow secrets to hold us hostage from all that God has created us to be. He can handle whatever it is that we need to say, or need to deal with - He is able to heal and deliver us like nobody else can. He made YOU awesome!!!
Posted on: Fri, 23 May 2014 02:25:24 +0000
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