Several facets of my life that have brought me great joy in the past few years are coming to a conclusion, come early summer. Ironically, this is very close to the one year anniversary of my having closed our family business of ten years. I have had some dark, sad and lost days... wondering how I was going to dig myself out of the pit of despair that Ive felt myself sinking into (and no, I am not being dramatic or kidding). The loss of six days a week, sometimes several hours a day worth of experiences that I greatly looked forward to... even clung to for sanity, on some (read: many) days is irreplaceable. This is an undisputable fact. There is no replacing these experiences or people... so I must be dragged kicking and screaming into this good night. BUT I must remember that when one door closes... blah, blah, blah (we all know how the rest of this platitude goes) and that I am being kicked flat out on my ass, from my comfort zone, for a reason. This morning, I awoke to the sun shining in my face and beckoning me from the bed, despite the toasty warm, cuddly comfort that said bed been affording me. I stumbled upon a list of ideas that Ive been working on for several years, now. Hadnt been paying much attention to the list, even though its always stayed neatly tucked away in the back of my mind. I sat down and started writing my everloving little heart out... the ideas flowing freely. As I sit here, flushing the mental toilet as facebook status (as has been known to happen), I realize that I may very well be in possession of the manifesto for the next chapter of my life. I have mixed emotions about this... but I am going to charge fearlessly forward and cast my strong hesitance to invest my heart in anything ever again straight to the wind. Hell, Ill try anything once... especially while picking up the pieces of a broken heart.
Posted on: Thu, 17 Apr 2014 14:47:07 +0000
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