Since arriving here, there has been an EXTREME amount of opposition... I know, I know... warfare, adjustment... hurtful people...the adjustment of a whole bunch of our kids... teeth getting knocked out, hospitalizations, mystery illnesses...concussion...housing issues... developing programs, financial concerns... typical ministry concerns... power surges... not speaking the language...Individual woman and children that we serve... Being responsible for running a household in the US where I am not... huge considerations for Isaac and Sofia, Serious teenager issue (understatement) Nothing like a couple of good earthquakes to make your cortisol level soar... Seriously, I can make every excuse not to take care of myself, and it would be legitimate to an extent, but I am finding when I settle into that mind set and I put myself on the back burner all of the above becomes all consuming, I am distracted, I feel old... my skin, my hair looks different (not in a good way)...ADD at an all time ugly... I am up late working and then cant get up to run in the morning...Depression begins to rear its UGLY familiar head... I get crabby and unable to cope regardless of prayers and quoting scripture.... HE CALLS ME TO HIM through caring for myself, in the quiet of a 6am run, in the clarity of mind as a result... HE LOVES ME through the effort of being conscious of what I am putting into my body... Suddenly all of the above seems manageable... I can hear him more clearly, I am a better wife, mother, minister and ME... Overall health is necessary, this is about SO MUCH MORE than body image... WHOLISTIC care for ME... Mind, body, spirit... I demand it for everyone else and I had a temporary lapse for myself... I forgot what HELL I used to live in, NOT GOING BACK THERE... I cannot afford to be off my game, especially not here... NO EXCUSES..
Posted on: Mon, 07 Jul 2014 13:51:35 +0000
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