Since people seem to think Facebook is a way of finding things out about me, even after having someone follow me around and watching me at my home, this ones for you... I am by NO means a bad mom OR person for that matter. When people meet me, one of the first things they say is how Im always either smiling or non stop laughing at everything. Some people even tell me they thought I was weird when they first met me because I was seriously just always happy and giggling. Lol. Now when people actually get to know me, they realize there are days I cant hold a smile and sometimes theres nothing that can make me laugh. Ive been through a lot, and still continue to go through different battles almost every week with my divorce and child custody issues. Im not exactly the same happy-go-lucky girl I was in high school, but thats only because of the things Ive been put through and the judgmental people who set out just to hurt me. And thats where the problem comes in. Just because I dont have a full time job right now like most moms do, doesnt mean that I dont do everything I can to make sure my son is taken care of. Just because I dont have THE BEST of everything, doesnt mean Im not doing the best I can during one of the hardest points in my life. But YOU wouldnt know that unless you actually know ME and you wont ever know ME unless you sit down and actually talk to ME. Come and ask me about what all Ive been through the past few years and I promise youll leave with a totally different perspective of who I really am. Im not going to give you excuses, Im going to give you facts of whats happened in my past that have put a burden on my life and the way I would be if certain events didnt happen. But, NEWS FLASH: thats life!! When dramatic events happen in life, good or bad, it effects the person who has to deal with it and everyone has their own way of handling what life throws at them. Ive been through more things then I or anyone at the age of 26 would ever dream of having to go through. You shouldnt sit there and judge me for how I go about handling my life, especially when you havent had to live it. So just remember that the next time youre scrolling through my Facebook. Yeah, I have tattoos (and I didnt even get my first one until AFTER becoming a mom), I go out and have drinks with my friends when I have free time, I listen to rap music, I stay up late, and I am most definitely NOT perfect. But that still doesnt make me a bad person. Thats just the way I choose to live my life right now and theres not one single thing wrong with any of it. A bad person is someone who wants to take down others from their happiness just to find an ounce of satisfaction. A bad person wouldnt be able to see the best in the worst possible situations. A bad person is someone quite similar to YOU and every other judgmental person who tries to bring me down when Im going through a hard point in my life. I know its hard for you to understand, I dont really expect you to. If God thought you were strong enough to deal with the life Ive been given, then you would probably understand more about me. But thats the funny part, because clearly you arent the strong one. You are the bad guy in this situation and every jab you take to try and tear me down is only one more sign of your weakness and cruel ways of living. So what I guess Im trying to say is, you can keep looking all you want but I promise the only thing you will figure out in the end is how much of a fool you are. What I put on my Facebook is only a quarter of what really goes on in my life. If you really wanna know about me, youre going to have to come to me. Ask any of my friends, Ill tell you my whole life story. I have nothing to hide and Im not ashamed of who I am. I know everything happens for a reason. And I know that everything Ive gone through is only making me a stronger person. So when you and all the people who try to destroy me read this, I hope you realize that without you, I wouldnt be who I am today. I wouldnt be the girl who can still see the good in things even when things are at the worst. I wouldnt believe in myself even after being told Im not good enough. And I definitely wouldnt be the person who still takes a stand for herself even after being walked all over. The hard times are what make me keep fighting. So thank you for making me stronger;)
Posted on: Wed, 10 Sep 2014 22:54:24 +0000
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