Since the end of the final med exams Ive been working a lot in Tel Hashomer hospital, as a doctors assistant. And some conversations with the interns, and my own thoughts through the years have occupied my mind... Many times through the studies, Ive been asking myself: Why? Why the hell do I do this? Im not the best or the brightest, so this is damned difficult to me. It takes up most of my time. The studies are hard, demanding, and that will never cease- the need to keep updated and current will follow up throughout my career... And what sort of a career it will be? The pay is not so hot in Israel, not compared to the time, effort, and sacrifice from you own life and family. The hours are... insane... no other way of putting it. The stress of handling so many crucial decisions, while not fully knowing as much as you probably should (At least not in the first years of internship), and everything take so damned long to accomplish! But... then you go on a shift, and Im only a doctors assistant but... you find a woman actually may have Scleroderma, find that in one hand the pulse is non existent, which leads to limb saving surgery, find out the wrong meds for another patient, find out that something doesnt quite adds up in the medical background of another, which leads to an important find, or even simply listen to some patients, let them express fear, pain, or even give a small private goodbye to the deceased... And there are other (Not many, but several) instances like that in the common work. It may sound like a feeling like god experience to some, but its far from it. Everyone who practice in the field of medicine knows how impotent you feel at times, on how many occasions you feel helpless, frustrated because you cant do anything to actually cure the patient, how many times you are faced with I just dont know why! or simply wait for someone to die... Medicine is a humbling experience... But you do get to do some good at time. Probably more in the future. You get to help, even if youre not the brightest or the best, and I guess that after some long struggle with the question Why? Is it worth it? well... for me at least, the knowledge I could be there for someone and helped them makes it worthwhile for now. Pardon me my rambling, I dont usually post on Facebook, but wanted to share this. Thank you.
Posted on: Sat, 11 Oct 2014 21:17:50 +0000
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