Six months ago today you left our lives here on earth. I know Ben Coolen, my dear sweet husband, that you probably wouldnt want me to to be sad. I know that you are with Jesus and your loved ones and I guess maybe a little of this sadness is that I am here without you. Idk. I am so sad you are not with us, I love you so much my heart really does hurt! I miss you so much Ben. Im so sorry I wasnt able to get the Veterans Administration Medical Hospital to check your Heart more thoroughly when you started needing that oxygen! That Dr. In the Cardiology clinic still didnt want to send you to the Cardiologist. On my insistence they did and your arteries were so blocked but by then your lungs so bad you couldnt have a bypass. Dr.s tried stents but then you started getting worse! You were not even using oxygen all the time like that, when we came to SC you were able to walk up and down the stairs same in MA. Im sorry I didnt get you to Drs outside the VA system earlier honey. I am glad I did take you to other Drs or I would have never known what the Agent Orange really did to your heart! You kept telling me the VA was trying to get rid of the Vietnam Vets.... I didnt believe that..... But they didnt give treatment that should have been done... Like an angioplasty when they did cardiac workup and ultrasound a few years ago instead of waiting till its too late. I wrote all this so people could see your death should not have been so early and why I am so upset with the VA system. You were my best friend, my lover my confidant. I love you and I miss you Ben!
Posted on: Fri, 27 Jun 2014 09:10:22 +0000
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