So Im going to make a post that is extremely personal but I feel need to stand up and be strong! At no time will I ever go through what I have been dealing with for over 2 years. I was not strong enough to walk away because I didnt want anyone to know what was going on behind my closed doors. This is extremely depressing but empowering to finally be free. As I prayed to die some nights or that he would hurt me bad enough that it would all be over. Even screamed for people to help me and call the cops. But no one came because he made sure that he did it where no one could hear. I even called his mother and asked for help as she just stepped back and said this is none of my business as she closed the door. I have had my lips busted with him forcing me to take a whole bottle of prescription medication. When he realized I was willing to swallow the whole bottle he shoved his fingers down my throat to force me to throw it up. Thank the Lord he saved my life, which Im sure made him feel even more like a man. Why you might ask I stuck around with this? I have no clue, I was not strong or lived so close to family to help me. I want going to even call the cops, I gave him 30 days to get out. I guess I didnt want to ruin anyones life. Weeeelll, family found out and for once I had the support I have been screaming for.... my aunt seen me get thrown across the room and it was all she wrote. I begged for her to not call the cops or tell my mom. WHY? BECAUSE I cared for something that was a monster. I finally did it and allowed my family to call the cops. And I will never turn back. Im instantly feel amazing and free. Im so happy that they saved my life that day. He can drain my bank, he can take everything and I would not care because Im free. I just want everyone to take a moment and think if they know anyone who needs help, to listen to their screams regardless of your position with the person who is the aggressor. I just hope that all the things my boys have seen will be forgotten and they forgive me for doing this to them. I will never forgive myself for what I have put them through, but I will be dammed if I ever let my boys put there hands on a women or anyone. Share my story, like it just get the word out that I may have lost the fight, but I will not lose the war. Justice will be served to me and my family for him doing this to me. This is the only photos I can post being the others are to graphic. Im alive
Posted on: Mon, 19 Jan 2015 02:13:29 +0000