So.. We made it past a certain checkpoint and I feel it is time to share. If you are not super close to our extended families or have not seen me in the last 2 months, you may have no idea. We are expecting Baby McElveen 2.2 by the end of the year! We have been busy meeting with the awesome specialists with Regional Perinatal Group checking on the babys health and growth, along with our awesome OB, and everyone is reporting we have a healthy and normal chromosomal baby. We forgot how good appointments felt. We forgot how to be excited to visit these people who were skilled to tell us news. We forgot to look forward to that due date on our calendar. We were hesitant but we learned! Baby girl Hannah was 30 weeks gestation when we lost her due to her chromosomal condition. We are now at 31 weeks with our baby now. We are not finding out the gender of this one because we are only concerned with babys health. Any other information is gravy. Plus, it adds a level of excitement we didnt have with Benjamin or Hannah before her test results came in. Is it difficult to not know, yes, but we are blessed to have made it this far and our heart is contained! When word little by little spread that our last pregnancy had 100% being fatal, everyone who had gone through a crappy experience came out of the woods, or if their friends had, came out. Misery loves company.. I heard so many stories about who had had miscarriages, learned who all couldnt conceive because of one reason or another, and THEN heard many stories about stillbirth (which we knew we were to experience), losing healthy babies during delivery for no reason told to them and losing to SIDS. Its a very sad world. And while the sad news helped me feel comforted in doses that I was not alone, and if I ran across someone who was honest and said they had no idea how we could handle this information of fatality or go through what we did, I was able to be happy for them and not jealous, while all of that happened last time, this time those stories still haunt me. Benjamins delivery was quite a scare and gave us the impression we could have lost him (details fade you and hormones take over your memory a bit but it was the scariest thing T and I had ever gone through). I say this because a part of me is still hesitant to celebrate, BUT with that being said, isnt every pregnant woman scared of that part? You cant control every detail.. The best you can do is have an awesome team to help you get it out of your body and into your arms (whether it is hospital staff, birthing center staff, or family for home births or whatever combination of this is good!) We have been busy with dusting the cobwebs of the nursery and painting it. Benjamin is excited to meet this baby mommy keeps in her tummy. He gives it hugs, he jumped around with us when we got done painting its room, he even tells me to feed the baby if Im talking during a meal! He is amazing, his father is amazing, Im blessed to be given another chance to expand our awesome family. Hugs for all who have thought about us over the past year and a half!
Posted on: Fri, 31 Oct 2014 12:41:34 +0000
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