So often we face this kind of uncertainty, this anxiousness, a sort of discomfort that we just can’t quite place our finger on… and we just want to get out of that feeling, this constricting ghost of conditionings, but we do not really know how because we never fully understood what this feeling and its roots are… So we may try to busy ourselves with some kind of work or projects, or by occupying ourselves in the land of infinite entertainments and distractions with netflix, youtube, tv, videogames, “spirituality”, and so on… or by praying, meditating and all other practices and rituals so to try and control and calm down the mind… But this is just escaping from the feelings that we do not like, not understanding them. And sooner or later, after our distraction of being busy in something, becoming, working, and so on… comes to an end, we are left with this anxious feeling once again… What is this compulsive urge to just do something, to constantly be occupied in doing something, to the point in which many of us would rather choose to shock ourselves than be alone with our thoughts without anything to keep the mind busy and distracted? What is this perpetual need of becoming that we are constantly seeking to fulfill–to be something that we are not? Isn’t it far more relevant to understand what we are right now and how our whole psychological life works than to be focused in the psychological picture and becoming of something that we are not and the ‘solution’ whatsoever? What is this thing that is bothering us so badly that we want to escape from it? Can we observe it, totally? Without being stuck in it and thinking through the conditioned thoughts that created these feelings and sense of discomfort, but thinking about them/at them outside of those thoughts and feelings without being ensnared by them? Can we think about what is influencing us, without being influenced by it? We are constantly nourishing this act of becoming, this thing called identity, because, whether consciously or not, we are silently (or bombastically perhaps) comparing to pictures of what we are not. There is this constant friction between “how I (think I) want things to be” and “how (I think) things are”. Even when we conquer some kind of identity, whether in the form of ambitions, success, and consensus outwardly, then we fear to lose it, constantly seeking to make sure that it is still here, still real. So we feel discomfort from not doing something, and we seek to fill up that discomfort by becoming busy in doing something (this is fine when it has a technical purpose of actually doing something, but creates confusions and disasters when applied psychologically and existentially). But why does this discomfort exist in the first place? We overlook this very relevant inquiry, preferring to focus on the “solution” whatsoever, but with no understanding of the problem and its roots! The very thing we seek to escape from our discomfort is the cause of it–our personally and collectively created prisons of identity! That’s Stockholm syndrome! This need to become something different than what we are, with no understanding of what we are, always comparing to what we are not and fabricating psycho-existential friction, pain, and discomfort. What we really want is freedom! Freedom from the self-suppression that we ourselves created, inwardly and outwardly… but we try to go about it through control, trying to control, suppress, escape, and distract ourselves from the feelings/thoughts that we do not like! So is it possible to free the mind from the constraints that we ourselves created and assimilated? Yes! Is it possible to think freely, with no conditionings, restraints, nor self-suppression and control (which is violence inwardly and outwardly) ? Think; profoundly… not with the heaviness and authority of seriousness, but not as a mere entertainment either. Is it possible to think out of all ambitions? With them perhaps as mere tools, but not through them… to think about our ambitions, but with no ambitions? That’s the real freedom we want! Not this constant escape from life, our feelings, mind, and ‘ourselves’! To think in total freedom and peace, which is psychological serenity and the flowering of our intelligence…. No longer having the ‘need’ of anything more… is that not maximum pleasure? That’s the beauty of existence: thinking and evolution of the mind in total freedom with no more prison of identity and ambitions! As long as we are stuck in this battlefield of becoming, focusing on what we are not, without understanding profoundly, intelligently, wholly, what we are, then nothing will ever change… As long as we are stuck in this limbo of right and wrong, then nothing will ever change; there will be no freedom in thinking or possibility for free intelligence. By observing and investigating our minds, and all of the surreptitious technology of conditionings and nonthinking that have been installed, we can begin to understand our confusion and the mess that we have created inwardly and outwardly. Think about these things…
Posted on: Fri, 08 Aug 2014 02:13:08 +0000
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