So this year I turn 40. Im not sure how that came to be because I still feel like I should be 30 but with this wiser head on me. Anyhoo, reaching such a milestone certainly gets you thinking, looking back, wondering and pondering. The biggest thing for me has been noticing how Im much closer I am at this age to who I was as a kid. As a kid I always wanted to make people laugh and feel good. I was quite a performer, loved being in a school play, feeling gutted if I wasnt the lead role (Yes that happened once). I would make up my own plays and find an audience, sometimes knocking on peoples doors inviting them to watch a show (I did this at my cousins house in Spain - I vividly remember putting out the seating with my cousins and sisters and knocking on doors inviting them to watch us splash around in the pool). I was always wanting to be the leader, which often got mistook for me being bossy (ok I was bossy but I was also a leader). I could sit for ages in class looking out the window daydreaming, to then get into trouble for not listening. I absolutely loved reading and would go to bed early to read my school book, my favourite was Of Mice and Men. I also loved to write stories and poems. But then as I grew up, these things that I loved to do started to melt away and when it came time for me to decide what I wanted to be when I grew up, I told my teachers that I wanted to live in Spain. Of course the response was you cant go and live in Spain, you need to choose a profession. But I had no idea what I wanted to be. I thought Id be a chartered accountant because thats what most of my friends wanted to be. I even visited one once and promptly decided against it. Looking back now, the thing that gets me the most is that if you look at what I do now, I work for myself, I help people to be happier, I give workshops and retreats, Im a Speaker, I write for a magazine, Im an author, I read tons - all of those things were there in kid form right from the get go. So I wonder why it is that it took me until I was 33 and the following years to actually discover what I was good at and get myself back to the place of being brilliant at the things I can do naturally. I know, I know, this has needed to be part of my journey, I needed to be take off piste in order to get back on piste so to speak. But heres the thing. Now I know all this stuff and I know there are tons of you out there who know this stuff, its no longer necessary for our children to go through the lengths its taken us for their gifts to be nurtured. Because had a teacher or someone close to me known these things they could have looked at all the stuff I was good at and pointed me in the direction of honing in on those skills instead of learning hypothesis theory and how to create a vacuum...yeah I did A Level maths and A level Physics, so far removed from where my talents lay, its no wonder I flunked. It could have knocked years and years off this search I was on. Im sooo happy I went on that journey but more importantly Im sooo happy that I now know this stuff so well (and I continue to learn and grow) so I can best support my children with their gifts and talents. But then I also know that we are living in extraordinary times and our children choose us because of what we can teach them and share with them so they fast track to living their souls purpose. And as I write this Im starting to get quite teary in a good way because these kids that are coming in now are so clever and so developed they are gonna knock our socks off. Anyway, that was just a ramble I felt I wanted to share ha
Posted on: Thu, 30 Jan 2014 11:35:24 +0000
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