So today is 2 months.. I count everyday, think,talk,pray for u, cry, shoot sometimes I can see u(I think Ive gone crazy) I remind myself ur gone when I call or text with no reply:( I watch myself and our family try to go on as rough n empty as it feels. My heart still breaks when I see ur sons try to hold strong.....the only thing different well two main things Ive gotten better at seeming OK n smiling for for people when inside Im broken and not whole....and the second is realizing that things will never ever be the same nor will i look at the world or people the same. Ive changed I feel a void Im sure we all do nickofer I feel as if it happened yesterday still I want I should say we all want u back if only we could but it wont happen like that, I have to wait my time to hug u, laugh, make fun of Patrick Huff,talk, n just sit with u. I miss u being my rock, protector, n mechanic, my tag team partner in life...I miss us always together n facing the world as a trio... its so hard to comprehend or wrap my mind around this n im stuck in this hole without u feeling empty n to sad to pick myself up out of it......Nickofer we love u so damn much all of us I know it its just not fair:( R.I.H BIG BROTHER TIL WE HUG AGAIN I love you to the moon n back! Ill be missing u
Posted on: Wed, 01 Oct 2014 01:35:53 +0000