So..today is the beginning of my second year at this thing..the past year so amazing..most of you know the details of my journey..Today I dont have a problem sharing them..but because I have a young son I decided against doing so publicly..Im sure you get that..and some are to horrific for everyone..from 1987 until late April 2013..I was on a path of complete self destruction..there are several theories on why..at this point it doesnt much matter...it only matters what I do and dont do today.. Years of insanity..harsh consequences..and self inflicted pain..had sent me running from my self..straight back into it..over and over again..this last time running far from home.. On April 30 th 2013..at a beautiful park in Clearwater, Florida..I dropped to my knees praying begging..pleading with God to take my life ..I wanted nothing more in those moments but to die..unbearable pain.plete isolation..was convinced I would never just be ok..that over half my life was over and the reality of what id become..the devastation I but upon the ones who relied on me and loved me the most..I believed they would be better off without me ...no matter how high I got the pain seemed to get stronger ..God did answer my prayer .not in the way I prayed..tho..and this overwhelming sense of strength over came me..I turned my back on self pity .starting forward ..on May 1 st.2013 ..I woke up clean and in a safe place..awaiting a bus ticket home..Ive looked back but never in the same way...through honest self evaluation..Ive learned to love and accept love..carry a positive armor..maintain a humble confidence..and build an unshakable spiritual ground...all through the living grace of God..who forgave me..and instilled me with self forgiveness..healing me with his loving hands...carried me back home in his loving arms. .and blesses me everyday.doing things his way is freeing..and easy after being released from the bondage of self..I prayed my life would just be ok..today its beyond amazing..and Im thankful every day that only my sad shell..died that night .thank you to everyone who loves and supports me..in the light and through the darkness..I love you all !!..a very special thank you.to..my mother in heaven ..my guardian angel...My father David..My earth mother Virginia Shafer..both my wonderful children..Justin & Jessica..My beautiful Granddaughter Nevaeh...the late. Jerry Parrish..Brenda Burgess.Kathy Long..My two best friends. Maurica Riggleman Dennis Dalton..& Tiffany Hoye Hardesty the entire Hardesty Family..Carrie Cook..Sue Hoye and family..thank you all so much..I love you all !!! A big thanks to Manning Smith !!! Jim Sherbin Sr.
Posted on: Thu, 01 May 2014 22:58:25 +0000