So ya, 11 years ago tonight I was really fed up of been pregnant for 9 months plus 10 days so, ya, I was more than ready. I never really enjoyed the first 3 months of constant vomiting, then as big as a balloon on steroids, feeling ugly, big and not sleeping at nights, not been able to see my own feet, I missed them deeply, seriously. People looking at you and smiling...never got that...I dont smile at ur beer bellies, so, ya know, ...nah, I didnt enjoy the pregnancy one bit. Been in a restaurant and ur belly moving like there is no tomorrow, and me trying to hide it as I dont know u girls, but this Victor of mine moved like if he was playing with Ronaldo, ( later found out that he was teething inside me, and he was suffering with the pain, as u all know he was born with teeth) but at the time I didnt know, so, felt strange and looked strange. Anyway, I was ready, I wasnt scared and to be honest I didnt mind the pain. I may be a bit weird, cos I found it more like a challenge and enjoyed the game but more painful was to not been able to sleep for a month straight while my darling husband snored like an animal near me. He came out, I looked at him and then is when I got scared to dead. They left me alone with him in a room, ( it was 1am) and they threw our all family members out. Please note that I never hold a baby in my life before, and I was left with this creature in the night, in a room alone. Suddenly I realized that the party was over. Oh yes it was. I couldnt even go to the toilet!! no way! I wouldnt dare to leave him there ....so, from one hour to another one, just to go to the toilet was a whole new experience. I didnt sleep one bit that night. Is ok, I was used to by then ( try to be 9 plus months pregnant) I couldnt sleep, I couldnt think, I couldnt be. Victor was here. Now, and even then, I realized that it was the change from Lucia to mama Lucia. This 11 year old insects, animals lover, nature lover, science passionated has absolutely save me from an empty life, from a self centred future and changed all my stupid early life plans, and more than anything the understanding that love, has no limits, still growing by the day. Victor, u are magical, and the world is so so lucky to have you here. Feliz cumpleanos mi nene. Thanks for making me understand and see.
Posted on: Thu, 23 Oct 2014 19:29:31 +0000
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