Sometimes autism hits you full force...and it knocks the breath out of you! Today we watched the worlds greatest little sister sing with the childrens choir. A beautiful thing...right? It was...and the WGG sat through it, in the balcony with his dad. BUT, after the singing, I joined them...and I could feel it...its as if when his anxiety increase my stomach muscles actually tighten..knot up...and I go into full autism mom mode. I squeeze his hand...apply deep pressure hugs...whisper encouragement..try to distract... But I feel it coming. I KNOW its coming. So, Im listening to the preacher give his sermon on trials & tribulations in your life...and it speaks to my heart...Im feeling it, you know? The congregation is so quiet & absorbed in the message...which is when the WGG loses it...lets out a scream so loud it makes the hair on your arms stand up & a practiced preacher stall for several seconds. I simply remain calm, never look up...I dont want to see the eyes on us. I take his hand, walk with me. Im holding In the tears. (Dont show emotion, youll only upset him more). We exit the church balcony...where we meet 7 men, Im assuming deacons running up the stairs...concerned that someone is severely hurt. I play it cool...I smile...thank them for their concern...explain he has autism & just overwhelmed...and that Im going with him to childrens church. They were all so kind...then one man puts his arm around the WGG & says, its ok buddy...a lot if people here care about you. I graciously thanked him...I held it together...made it to a vacant hallway...looked up toward heaven...and let the fountain flow...then I hugged my precious son...wiped both our tears...and with the strength only God can provide...put a smile on my face and said, lets go sing and be happy, which is exactly what we did.
Posted on: Mon, 10 Nov 2014 01:41:51 +0000
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