Sorry everyone i know im not the easiest person to love or sometimes even like...My worst feature is the fact no matter how hard i try to wake up happy and opptimistic i wake up miserable and waiting for the world to end....I cant remember the last time I smiled....The fact of the matter is that i have no reason to be unhappy! I have a great life! I have a great GF the mother of my children Amber Montgomery and 2 beautiful daughters who I love with all my heart..But somehow everyday find a way to make their life miserable by yelling and being grumpy..I have great friends but forget to call them or go see them....I hate myself for this...I dont know how to love, i dont know how to be happy...I can be doing something i love and still be miserable! I can be out golfing and hit a few bad shots and be soo mad im ready to quit and break all my clubs..I can be out fishing and if im not catchin anything i get soo mad i feel like jumping in and drowning myself..I am soooo hard on myself for everything that it I make myself angry that I cant do something right.I get mad at myself for getting mad at my kids and just makes it worse...I ask for help but wont change...I scream for attention but dont want anyone to see or hear me so get mad when someone does...I can see what i do but keep repeating my mistakes......Something has to change!...I want to wake up happy like everyone else...I want to smile more than i frown...I want to be able to truely show my family and friends the love they deserve...To Amber Mongomery I am sooo sorry i dont show u that I love and need you everyday and be the man i should be..To my girls i am soo sorry i get soo mad and yell at you a hundred times a day and treaten to throw your toys away when you dont clean up...Get mad when you ask be to play with youTo my Mom and Dad I am soo sorry I dont stay in contact and atleast make an effort to show you guys how thankfull i am for all you have done for me....Something is wrong with me!!! I know i need help I know i need to change I just need to find a way to make myself do something about it. I am sooo sorry for everyone i make miserable!
Posted on: Sun, 17 Nov 2013 21:58:42 +0000
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