TESTIMONY: In the year 2005-2006. When I was at the end of my own thoughts to decide on one important thing in life, God told me, When you are at a crossroads, stop, look & listen. Ask me where to go & I will show you the way. One time in 2005, one teen-age admirer of mine years back then came into my life through news from our townmates who are also here with me in this small city we live in. This person was & is a good-looking one, a polite, kind man, but was too shy to tell me he loved me & even hid himself whenever he saw me in high school days. He, then, said through them, Lillith is now divorced & me, too. There is no more hindrance for us to become a couple for life. I thought, Oh! I´ve been his heartthrob since then? Until now for forty years? Wow! that must be something! But I didn´t know if it would be God´s will for me to get married again & start all over again adjusting to someone else in my life! I didn´t & don´t want the Lord´s ministry to have anyone as Jesus´ rival in my heart & in my life! I simply wanted to be alone with God for his whole will, but there was also a li´l breath of a desire to have someone along life´s way! In short I was turned between yes, maybe & no, not at all & never! The avid suitor kept conveying regards through my friend & cousin. They planned for us all to gather together one day in summertime so that we could meet & talk! Wheeeooowww! I was kind of excited to know what might be our feelings for each other! But the news was really so that he wanted to marry me! Uh uh! Yet nothing happened whatever plan was made! It was always postponed over & over again! Yet, both of us were, kind of, expecting something good for the two of us that would happen soon! But I had to consult God for that future´s thoughts first! I said, God, give me a sign, please, whether you want me to get married again or not..whether it is your will for me ... or NOT! Let him give me a ring. And when he calls up on the phone, let him talk to know it´s your will for us to be a couple. IF NOT! Then don´t let him talk even if he is on line! Then I will know the answer. An anonymous caller rang up, but no one was talking! I simply listened. Someone was online, but didn´t say anything! I hanged up. This went on until about 7 calls! Yet nobody spoke! Not even hello or whatever, but the breathing could be heared! My son, Jeremy, said, Mom, someone is calling who doesn´t speak at all but you could hear the breathing! And because the person won´t talk, I did a beatbox music with my mouth & just made a joke till I hanged up. My friend & his in another city where he lives told me this man asked for my telephone number. She said he could be the one who keeps calling without talking bcause that man was afraid & ashamed to talk to me! Yet I wanted so much to hear him talking & see what could be ... I don´t know ... what would happen within the heart, mind & so on! One night, I was already kind of upset, for here was another call for the 7th time & no one talked! I said, Boy? Is that you? Why don´t you talk? Why are you calling when you don´t want to say anything at all! What is this calling for? Common speak up! All of a sudden, there he was, saying, You know me. I have always been a shy guy. Am ashamed & afraid to talk with you. To make the story shorter, God answered what I asked for: a sign whether it was his will for me to get married again or NOT at all! That last final call & conversation was the first & last! See? Get the point here? Whatever it is we must decide on, ask God what to do. Let´s not live by our feelings alone, because we never ever know the will of God! His is perfect! Feelings come & go. Feelings change! But God´s will remains rightly genuine, correct & true. Body form now & in the future? Fat or thin? Beautiful or ugly-looking on earth? It´s not permanent! Only God´s love remains permanent forevermore unconditionally. God Bless U. Follow the Holy Ghost´s guidance in your heart. Lean not in your own thinking & understanding of the given problem to meet the right decision with. IT IS HARD TO SEE GOD´S OWN PERSPECTIVE IF I´VE GOT MY EYES ONLY ON ME. A.V.M.SKRZYPEK March 27, 2014 - Thursday 12:59 high noon
Posted on: Thu, 27 Mar 2014 11:59:34 +0000
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