TPA ToyZ离开 TPA的内心话（以下是翻译） 正式离开TPA，内心深处的话。 About leaving TPA, words from deep in my heart. 接近两年的台湾电竞之旅到这里正式完结了，从一个只是热爱著游戏渴望著胜利的玩家机缘巧合下当上了职业选手。一直以来我打电动的想法就是「要打，就打到最好」。为了坚持自己的理念我一直都很努力去证明自己，但是这条路并不容易，我每天花超过10个小时在练习上，逐渐发现自己手腕出现麻痹的现象，后来问医生才发现那是腕隧道症候群，我每天还是不由自主的继续练习。值得庆幸的是在台湾国内的比赛还是进行还算顺利，我们拿到了S2资格IPL5资格，我并没有因此而感到高兴，因为如此同时我们被大家戏称为「东南亚霸主」「国内王」。 My journey of eSports in Taiwan has ended, almost 2 years, from just a normalenthusiastic player that thirst for victory just like everyone else, became apro gamer with a bit of luck and chance. Do nothing but the best. This is theprinciple I have always been sticking on to and trying very hard for everygame I played to prove myself. But honestly, the road ahead is not easy at all. I had been practicing more than 10 hours a day and started to feelnumbness and pain in my wrist. But I still couldn’t help continue practicingeven when I was diagnosed with carpal tunnel syndrome. Fortunately, we didpretty well in tournaments in Taiwan, and we got the S2 and IPL5qualifications. But I am not happy because at the same time people werejokingly referred us as King of South East Asia or King of Taiwan. 接下来长达三个月的集训，我们每天不间断的练习，当中跌跌撞撞过无数次，BattleRoyal 的18连败，跟中韩队伍练习各种被电，每次输线的挫败感都使我很沮丧，这段时间我一直觉得自己比不上其他选手，特别是Zzitai、Ambition这种对线技巧超凡的选手。一个选手在毫无信心的状况底下根本没办法正常发挥更不用说超水准的表现了，比赛必然是越打越糟，但在这个困境底下我最终还是找到一个适合自己的打法。 After we got the qualifications we started our training, we practiced everysingle day before the S2 world championship. During these 3 months, we facedmany problems and stumbled so many times. We lost 18 games in a roll inBattleRoyal, and lost every single game while scrimming with Chinese andKorean teams. I felt frustrated and very depressed every time when I lost thelane, and started to have the feeling that maybe i am not as good as othermid laner, especially players like Zztai and Amibition who has extraordinarylaning skills. At this point, I have lost all my confidence, no one canperform properly under this condition, and of course I failed on the coming up games. But finally, I overcame this extremely difficult situation andfound my own style to dominate the game. S2大赛将近，经过各地区的预选赛之后总共十二个队伍来角逐这次的世界总决赛，TPA也很幸运地东南亚区抽到地区种子直接进入S2八强，比赛前亦有各式各样的网站去估算这次参赛队伍的实力，虽然我们并不被看好名次只有比SAJ高被排在第十一名，因为大家都不看好我们，这份感觉反而让我们五个抱著Nothing to lose的心态去放手一博，结果让全世界都跌破眼镜，连我自己都不敢相信这个结果，我们嬴得「世界冠军」这个头衔。 As the date of S2 world championship getting close, 12 teams from all overthe world had advanced from regionals and were going to compete in worldfinals. TPA was very lucky to be the seed of South East Asia region and gotstraight into the quarter finals. Many websites had estimated the strength ofevery team participated, and TPA was only ranked higher than SAJ. 虽然我们队伍嬴得了世界冠军，可是队伍当中一直以来都存在著一些问题，但是为了应付接下来的IPL5，我们暂时没有余力去正视这些问题。在要出发参加IPL5前我向公司提出希望可以换到新队伍打接下来的这一年甚至退休，但IPL5结束后经过内部沟通公司认为将Mistake换至新队伍才是对现任五位成员最好的解决方法，公司希望我接任队长继续打下去，当时我第一个反应就是：「不行，一个台湾队伍让我这港仔当队长肯定会被酸到歪掉」，但是公司认为我是队伍当中最适合这个职位的选手，所以就接受这个安排继续留在台湾。 Although we won the S2 World Championship, there had been always someproblems in our team. However we didn’t have the time and energy to face theproblems because we had to prepare for IPL5 at that time. Before we left forIPL5, I asked Garena if I could switch to the new team (TPS) and stay foranother year or even until the day I retire, but after IPL5, we had somediscussion and Garena decided to switch Mistake to TPS was a better solutionfor all five TPA members at that time. Garena asked me to lead the team andkeep playing, but my first reaction was that “No way! People will definitelycriticize a lot that someone from Hong Kong to be a leader of Taiwanese team.” However, Garena still considered me as the most suitable player to be theteam leader. Therefore I accepted this arrangement and continued to stay inTaiwan. 拿下S2冠军之后很多玩家把Toyz跟世界顶尖AP划上等号，渐渐变成大家学习与研究的对象，我也把自己的目标设定得越来越高，要求自己每一场比赛练习都要压制对手，因为那时候开始Toyz对线被压对大家来说是一件不符常理的事。那次比赛之后，别人应付我们的对策重点开始特别关照中路，在这种情况下我可以给予的线上压制越来越少，如此同时我也渐渐迷失了，找不回自己的打法，我想尽办法去改变自己的风格去适应对手的重点照顾，做出不一样的尝试，像AP Janna把队伍核心放在AD上只需要线上拼命洗兵龟塔让中路不会再被GANK到崩盘。但是回头想想，这还是原来的Toyz吗？为什麼把自己的风格转变得不像自己了？ After winning Season 2 World Championship, a lot of players have consideredToyz as a world top AP, and started to research me and tired to learn fromme. Therefore I set my goals really high and asked myself to win the mid linein every single game since people would think it’s unbelievable for Toyz notto win the line. Since then other teams tried to put the pressure on themiddle line when playing with TPA. Because of that, it’s difficult for me towin the middle lane and I started to lose my own style of playing my mid AP.I have tried hard to change my playing style to cope with what other teams’ strategy which was focusing on me, and I did things like playing AP Janna tolet the team rely on AD and all I had to do is to farm as much as I could andthey wouldn’t always gank me and then in the end we would lose the game.However, thinking back, is this still Toyz? Why have I turned the playingstyle into the way which wasn’t really Toyz’s style? 接下来的比赛包括SWL、NGF、All-Star、GPL都没有达到大家对我以及对TPA的期望，一次又一次的落败，笔墨无法形容的难受以及来自舆论的压力，每次打开PTT，看著大家对我的指责与批评我总是无法入睡，甚至有一段时间是靠著药物才有办法睡眠。像是国藉问题我并没有办法改变，甚至还会觉得为什麼我不是台湾人？所以我也只能接受这些言论。老队友一个一个的离去，这些也并不是我们所乐见的，回头想想，当初支持自己继续留下来的因素也渐渐的消失了，当初为台湾而战的信念也渐渐被磨灭了，经过一个多月的思考最终做出离开的决定。我很清楚其实背后还有很多人支持著我，我很感激你们，也许有些人不怎麼喜欢我这个选手，我也感谢你们点出我的问题之处。 After Season 2 World Championship, there were games like SWL, NGF, All-Star,GPL, I didn’t meet the expectations people have for TPA. We lost again andagain, and I can’t explain how bad I feel about those critics and thepressure I had. Every time I checked PTT(Taiwanese forum like Reddit) andread about how people blamed and criticized me, I felt so bad that I couldn’t sleep. For a while, I had to rely on sleeping pills so I could get somesleep. Things like my nationality are not something I can do to change it,and I sometimes wondered why I wasn’t Taiwanese. Therefor, I just had toaccept those critics. My old teammates left one after one, and this is notwhat we want to see. Thinking back, those factors made me stay after S2 hasgone gradually. The faith that I had to fight for Taiwan somehow vanish andafter one month’s long thinking, I made the decision to leave the team. Iknow very well that a lot of people support me and I really appreciate that.Maybe Some people don’t like me, but I am thankful for that you pointed outwhat my problems were. 最后感谢Garena一年多前邀请我加入TPA，我当时只是一个嬴了几个线上比赛的玩家，感谢你们给我这样的一个机会让我走进这个大舞台证明自己。这里有很多对我很好甚至愿意提携我的人，还有一路以来跟我一直奋斗的队友，没有你们也没有今天的我，衷心感谢你们。 Last, I want to thank Garena for inviting me to join TPA even though at thattime I was just a player who won a few online games. Garena gave me anopportunity and the stage to become a progamer to prove myself. At Garena, alot of people have been nice to me and helped me in every way, and myteammates who I have fought together all the way are great. I know I can’tbe who I am now without you guys. Thank you all so much from the bottom of myheart. 来自tieba.baidu/p/2426869145#frs_nav
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