Thanks everyone... I just needed to really clear my head and have all the encouragement you all have shown me plus cry and take a nap. The best teacher I could ever ask for who helped me become the nurse I am today is willing to help me with trying to prepare for the remainder of my test and help get me through it. So I will continue to push through until my breakthrough point is finally here and I can have the summer off to really try and take time for myself along with having some much needed time to heal and think about Nolan. I have stayed so busy with school, work, everyday life, bills, losing Nolan and sleep deprivation that I dont fit In time to get my feelings out as I should and so when I have finally bottled up enough it just overflows and tears fall. I end up feeling overwhelmed and get in a really upset sort of depressed mood. I couldnt count the times that I have walked into the house and Jay and Brycen are sitting on the couch and all they see is me immediately start crying and they both come and hold me. Brycen hugging my leg and Jay giving me the biggest understanding hug and kiss on the forehead because he knows the pain too. I miss Nolan so much and I really need this not only for myself and Brycen and Jay but because getting my RN is something I am trying to do for Nolan. I will keep pushing through unless god plans otherwise. I am stronger than this challenge and this challenge is making me even stronger.
Posted on: Fri, 04 Apr 2014 04:14:02 +0000
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