The Robin Williams tragedy has been on everyones mind this week. Because I have never made a secret of the fact that through out the 80s I was fighting major depression and twice tried to commit suicide which resulted in a long term hospitalization in a private mental hospital, I was asked by someone what it feels like to be so depressed that one would think that killing oneself was better than living. What I told them was that unless you have been there it is impossible to know just how lonely, terrified, tired, full of pain, helpless, and hopeless it feels. But the closest I can come to describing it to you is to ask you to think back to when you were swimming as a child and someone held your head under the water until you could no longer hold you breath. Remember the terrified feeling you had and the striving you put forth to get free. Now multiply that feeling of fear by ten and you can begin to experience the feeling a person with major depression feels every day and every hour of his or here life. People with depression have to fight everyday just to survive and live a somewhat normal life. No one wants to commit suicide; it is not a choice. It is the only remedy one can think of to escape the torture which is life for a depressed person. I would like people not to confuse major depression with alcolhol and drug addiction, ptsd, and other mental disorders such as OCD. While these are difficult and dangerous disorders that sometimes lead to suicide, they are not major depression. In fact someone I love with all my heart has ptsd so I am well aware of what it is like. I am not able to comment on them because, other than OCD, I am not overly familiar with. I am only trying to show people what major depression is like and help people understand it better. Many, many people suffer from it everyday but it never gets talked about unless someone like Robin Williams is mention. That is sad. People with major depression are not weak willed, unfaithful Christions, lazy, forgetfull, have no backbone, sickly, or any number of names; all of which I have been called by family and so called friends. So if you know of someone who is depressed and talks of ending his or her life, get that person HELP ASAP. Take them to an emergency room, call a help line, or stay with them until an ambulance can get there. I hope this help even one person. Sorry if this seems repetitive but I had posted it before and somehow it got deleted. But I just want everyone to know that major depression is not just feeling down for the day, or blue because a loved one is not around, etc. It is a real physical and mental illness and needs to be treated as such. Our society does not do that.
Posted on: Fri, 15 Aug 2014 21:15:25 +0000
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