The morning arrives with a soft pat upon my face from a black cat. Sentinel is tired of me sleeping. You see, it is his regular activity to play a little bit with me while Sarah still sleeps. When she wakes, however, he jets off like he was never there. Strange little bugger. I pray, meditate and then rise to my quiet morning. Today, I make fresh turkey sausage with egg whites, toast and jelly and then grind some of the best coffee I have tasted in some time. I prepare all of this for my beloved bride and myself whilst she sleeps. In fact, she is still asleep as I type this. I have already had my first cup of coffee and eaten my share. On the weekend, especially when her child is away, I like to let her sleep, make her breakfast and allow her the peace that she deserves. She is a pretty amazing woman. My wife, Sarah Elizabeth, is not just a professional animal artist AkA groomer at the Davison Vet clinic, she is also an total animal enthusiast. Because of her, our home has dogs, cats and lizards. We used to have a fat tarantula, too, but she died. Now, I fear, we will soon have an owl or something! haha. If you pay attention to her posts, you would see just how in love she is with owls. She even walks around the house saying ha ha hoo like this owl from a movie we recently saw. Yup. Owls. God help me. I love how my wife loves what she does. Especially because she loves me in the way that she does. She is always listening and learning, which is helpful, since that is my mainstay. Recovery has allowed me to pay attention to life. That might mean different things to different people, but for me, it means to progress. I am not allowed to take things for granted anymore. This life is a gift and how I live it is the gift I can give back to the One that created. I believe we can change anything. I believe we can rise above it. I believe that there is a reason for everything. I believe....in my dreams. And it is a dream come true to have this world before me. In just the last 24 hours, I have been able to do an open talk at one of my favorite 12 step groups. I was able to share my heart and soul in front of some people that I work with and help out on a regular basis. I was even told that I helped someone come out of a serious depression and stay clean another day. Wow. Blessing. I was able to watch my workmates celebrate Xmas while, all while eating a wonderful meal among them. There are people I care about more than I lead on. In the later day, I was able to pay all my bills and then some, put some money away and see my strange and funny step daughter off for a few days. It is so funny. There are times when I am just in a mood to be by myself for a while, and then when she comes around, I end up really liking her presence. Something about children. Not always, but it did happen yesterday. That is some kind of gift. Later on, during date night, we were right next in line to see the Hobbit in IMAX, when the last ticket got sold. Damn! So, we go to sit down, a bit frustrated, thinking we will have to wait 3 hours for the next show or just see it in regular 3d or just regular..oh, the problems of my life, right? haha. I cannot complain. I would have seen it on VHS. As a moment passed, up walks Dr. Sovey, Sarahs very nice boss at her job. She is there with family and friends. Turns out, two of her party did not arrive and she had two tickets for the IMAX show. She offered, we accepted and got some great seats, even tho we were almost last in line. We laughed, cried and cheered and when it was all said and done, we had witnessed something that had begun almost 14 years ago with FELLOWSHIP of the RING and had pretty much ended today. If you follow these films, you get me. That, and we got to share a film with her boss and co workers and their family, as well as a legion of Tolkien fans that seemed to be just as happy as we were. And what of this? Is this just a film? Or is a series of stories that represent the best in people. That, we can recover from our differences and band together for a common good? The focus on these stories and films is friendship and love. To battle what is evil and to grow and change. Are we not so different from such beings in a fantasy film? I think we are, in fact, quite the same. Anyways, this is just a bit of a morning rant, but also a bit of a love note to my wife, Sarah. It is a love note, for all things that I am, for all that I do and strive to be, I strive to be and share it with you, my love, my ever after. My wife. I love you! But if you do not get up soon, I might start eating your food. :) PS Here is a song I wrote for Sarah. A little ballad called Bleeding. From my latest album. She was listening to it last night while we drove, so I thought I might share it here. https://soundcloud/luciferfulci/bleeding
Posted on: Sat, 20 Dec 2014 14:11:23 +0000
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