The numbness has started to wear off now and ive come to the realization that youre not coming back. I never thought at the age of 17 Id be writing a eulogy for my own Moms funeral. Its hard to believe youve been gone a year today. When you first told me you had cancer I didnt want to believe it and I blocked it out. But over the next year, watching you get smaller and slowly fall apart was the worst thing Ive ever had to endure. Its been rough. I wish you didnt have to go so early but I know youre better off now in heaven than you would ever be here on Earth. No doctor could ever heal you in the way God did. Going on without you is gonna be one of the hardest things I will ever do. It sucks that you couldnt see me graduate High School. And that you wont be able to witness my Boot Camp Graduation but I do know youll be watching from heaven and maybe even right there by my side helping me through every step of the way. I know the military wasnt your favorite thing for me to think about but I know youd be proud and I want you and dad to be proud of me more than anything. So youre my inspiration for everything now. I love you soo much and miss you soo much. See you again soon momma.
Posted on: Thu, 11 Sep 2014 22:11:30 +0000