The stress is real. But I have a good grade so far in my anthropology class right now. hovering around 87% or something. I wrote a paper in two days, one which I started over several times, and was utter crap compared to my standards, I received and 87%, and got feedback on the things that were terrible about it. Good thing I already knew they were terrible? Not sure how I am doing in my online class other than really bad at doing the readings so super stressed there. Discovered I literally read at a speed of 3 minutes per page, so when I have weeks with 200 pages of reading, well it makes sense I dont get the reading done :/ But it sucks because I know I could if I had more time, so I could achieve and learn more, but at this rate I cant. 100 pages x 3minutes per page= 300 minutes= 5 hours of reading. So totally possible to do between Wednesday and Thursday and Monday and Tuesday, but really draining when I have that much reading along with other work I have to do...I just dont have the energy to spend 7+ hours every day on home work. Ive done it before, but I also was having serious panic attacks that term, and it was just really stressful physically and emotionally and completely unsustainable...bad for mental health...so unfortunately instead of doing that to potentially get all my work done, Im doing very little to none of my hw, and that also stresses me out hardcore, but it stresses me knowing that I have no time to relax/have fun if I actually do my work, and just knowing the time investment Id have to make...I havent been able to convince myself to do basically anything. I wish I could read faster :/ Just knowing that the time investment wouldnt be so bad would help so much to motivate me, but as it is I cant motivate myself very easily since I know theres no reward until the term ends with how slowly I read if I actually did the work because thered be no down time, just work on hw, eat, work on hw, go to class (work on hw on the way to class), eat, come home (work on hw on the way home, sometimes sleep) eat, do hw and sleep and then do it all over again...Ive lived this schedule...its where I had panic attacks all the time...so I cant motivate myself to do it again XD;
Posted on: Wed, 22 Oct 2014 07:50:36 +0000