The sun is rising, another night of sleep deprived by anxiety, depression, overwhelmsion (yep Im making that word up because it works for me). I dont know about you, but while Ive always lived with anxiety and depression, since becoming a parent the only time I feel OK to let it all surface is when my child sleeps. Not that I do at all of a great job hiding it from him - he might be only nearly four but he has psychologically profiled me to a tea, knows me more intimately than anyone, and can tell that Im faking it and plays along with the charade. So my time to just let it out is coming to an end and he will wake and my tears will be gone and Ill smile and give him a good morning cuddle. Its hard enough being a parent without being a single parent. Its hard enough being a single parent without being in poverty, juggling peanuts week to week. Its hard enough being a povertised single parent without the government and media telling me that i am an intentional strain on society. Its hard enough being a povertised single parent scorned by media and government, without the other parent supporting me or our child. And finally, it is hard enough being a povertised single parent scorned by government and media who is lacking a coparent, without having to navigate a world where parenting is devalued and the only thing that matters is how much tax you pay or your employment status. I hope this fog lifts soon. I dont even know what the point of this post is, just venting I guess. Its hard for many of us, so thank you for listening, and maybe relating.
Posted on: Tue, 06 Jan 2015 19:44:39 +0000
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